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long time ago.

2011-04-06T22:41:00.000-07:00

a long time post.

sorry for it i know that was a huge gap between another post just think i was passing some of my bad days.

well however this post goes to all readers.

those days in my life many changes happened i am wondering that how much fast life changes itself.
well it's just about destiny every one have to face i have many things to write but i know i can't even remember many things.

well the sequence i remember is like

i had broke-up

my result was declared i failed in 4 out of 6 and backlogs 2 were clear out of 6. i know that's disgusting result but no one can know how it feels when you work hard after study sometime and they don't even pass you and the one passes who wrote linking park lyrics in his exam..

part of indian corruption.

and now i am used to it.

my parents was depressed because of my result.

i was like i had a baddest thing happened in my life but time teaches to everyone so that i breath again.

i just spent some good times also but i don't remember any only many bunks and less attendance in college and all...

after that 4th sem started

family don't have enough money to go on.they wasn't even able to buy me books..(when sometime you're rich and when you come down on this stage it feels like you are facing the hell)

bad things were taking control on my mind.

i wasn't able to decide whom to trust and who is the friend of mine.

in this time i used to roam with van everytime bit of fun with my old group.

that was only good time of mine.. now the new group haves some of good persons like

mihir (chindi,BOB) - a good but duff person.

jackie - okay person a bit of un mature he is great friend of chindi.usefull person.

devn - little in hight bad with mind thought a person you may like to friendship with.

chavda - funny person non cultured.he does all the bad works in baroda.

dhaval - nice person good friend of van.i don't know how to describe this person.

mahesh - actually friend of dhaval but now days of ours also a great man with no attitue no complains and no demands.

and all goes oon no enough memory to write the moments..

one good moment is that i went to vasad for a technical event in college over there. suddenly at evening mama (mum's brother) called me and told me to come at office if we want to drink whisky.damn we were crazy with this. we drunk a lot over there because everybody was in stress and then damn tight fun..

well that's all about what i done.

but i just want to write some more i don't know why i feel to write this but i just want to...

as many guessed it's about love..

as my experience it's only thing that can make your laugh and cry also.i was wondering why peoples cry for loves but when someday i saw my face i was one of them.

it's crazy things but that all thing is known by everybody.

this below words for/on my life those person who feels boredom by reading that can hit the X button at right of top.

i never described i have loved many girls.sometime one side love sometime two side but no one dared to ask.sometimes no love just a relationship.and sometime only eye contacts.sometime miss match and that all..

in my 11th grade i came in touch of internet and in starting i started using it for knowledge then for fun.

i remember all day chatting and the impresson in all over chat rooms.a great friends whole day hang out in there.

it was a great moments of my life.

then i don't remember i fell in love.

large distance relationship and even over internet. i was not much mature but just feeling love i accepted.

and then 3 years of relationship.

many times about to be broken many fights many love moments and all things happenes in a internet relationship.

after that i starts liking a girl that looks like my entire GF

post continues.....

GOA trip

2011-01-07T09:44:00.000-08:00

yeah as passing out from many difficulties at last we planned to go goa in vacation..

me,rajan,darpan,bittu,jatin,sankalp were contributed..

though we all were excited with this.. however we were passing time like hell..

passed x-mas and then 31st we had planned a lot for this... at last we decided to take car of my mama on rent and then we have planned all other things..

that was amazing we departed on 1/1/11 and the driver was awesome person sunil bhai...

20 year old cool and open with having good knowledge in his field...

well we were having fun on road... it was just like an dream was going to be complete...

and thus taking holds and having fun we were going over there... it was gonna take about 24 hours to travel to goa... goa is the most awesome place of India which is democracy not bounded from indian govt.

whatever it's a place having about 22 beaches and 3 longest beaches of world is in goa...
and many foreigners come there to hang out from many countries... in short it's a heaven..

well jatin is chain smoker and so he had to smoke everytime and i am almost turned into chain smoker.. so first while taking hold i had to hide and smoke from driver because i was afraid if he tell this to mama... well whatever after knowing him a bit we started smoking in car also....

we were smoking like 2 in half hour..

and thus we were moving..

at evening there was a traffic jam and we were stuck in traffic so we started smoking even sank were smoking it was like total hang over...

then after moving from traffic

all were sleepy and jatin must had to be awake because he was sitting beside the driver.so he was chatting with sunil bhai all the night...

at morning i woke up it was the turns of the mountains...

and we were about 150 km. and we were again much excited..

at last we were in Goa we found a guide over there..
and he took us to a room and we got a room... and it was direct by side of beach river...

it was awesome view and everybody was happy and so on we bought some tickets from guide to go on dolphin tour and then cruse and of goa tour bus...

we had 1 hour to be ready and then had to go we were on rush everybody wanted to go for bathroom and there were only one bathroom between 7.. duh crazy thing...

thought in rush we were moving for ride..

and then fucking guide he went somewhere and even he switched off his phone.. he gave us all the tickets of tours and we paid him good bucks and soo...

we kept calling him it was showing busy sometime and sometime out of coverage and once he sent me a message that he will call me later...

damn fcuking crazy trip...

2010-12-28T09:49:00.000-08:00

umm i really don't know what to write in this... just to kill the time..

aat 26 we went to ahemdabad science city we just decided to go so...

tht was a crazy decision we were 6 and with less money... but all thing was planned well but many problem arrived. in morning i wake up late after snoozing the alarm all time.. though it wasn't actually late..

then called van he was ready he just told me that he is telling her mom that he is going to his friends home named abhay and he told me to talk to her mom as abhaay (what a crazy start with a lie)...

i talked to his mother and then she let him come out... then he came home and we went to pick up dhaval and at his home he wasn't ready and he didn't even had enough money..van forced him to come then he went to bath...

plan was changed we decided to manage his money from mahesh(a friend of dhaval he also wanted to come with us we just know him because he is friend of dhaval and a nice person also)

and then jackie went to pickup mihir(BOB) and then that crazy thing started how ever we went at a friends place (jiggi) and parked vehicles we came four peoples on two wheeler of van.. :P i was driving fucking crazy.

and then we had had arranged a auto rikshaw and went at place then took a shuttle for ahemdabad and then had talk and fun in car... it was feeling like great hang out but no one had idea what gonna happen.. the driver of car told us to lift over on high way and from there we will get some shuttle for science city.
and we believed him after paying him we climbed a bridge and then started waiting for a vehicle to drop us at science city we thought we have enough money to go over there....

but the riksha driver told us fucking hilarious amount to drop us over there... after that we decided to go at some other road preffered by the river and then ask lift we went there by shuttel and after some photography we went to that circle and then started asking for lift that cab driver told us fucking big amount again... we were about 30 km to cross for science city.. then we just begged (kind off) and told we are out of money and all then a driver told us not to pay else we can pay some off.. we just sat in and went to science city.. but we paid to driver.. he was a nice man..

then we went in paying for another entrance ticket.. and then went to 3D theater and then bob went to buy ticket for all...when he bought it he realized we totally out of money.. we thought they will return us some of deposits for glasses but they didn't hah all were afraid bob was shouting we are not going home.. and all..

after that i juust used my mind and i opened my wallet and there were mine 100 bucks note after pic of candy i use that to save always and dhaval had a note of 100 bucks also so we thought it will be OK with it... we just snapped some pic togather and then went to movie it was awesome experiance as pratik bhai told... we had fun with movie.. after that we went out and everyone was hungry.. hah

not a bit of something we ate from morning...
but we weren't able to eat anything and no one either had ATM for money...

so at out we started waiting for city buy for railway station. 1 gone 2 gone 3 gone.. no one wanted to stop and crowd was waiting for it.. some of hot school girls were also there...

we all were hungry waiting for bus and just hoping for home..

then van just found some old note it wasn't in good condition and i found a 20 rs note so we bought some cigarettes and some thing to eat me dhaval and van smoked and others ate we were eating like slowly just to save life kill the hunger...

it was fucking 2 hours waiting for bus... we did crazy things to stop vehicles.. no one stopped bob ran after bus to catch it but didn't worked after more half an hour a bus came and stopped we all rushed in and 2 hot girls also...

we used to push each other first but after sometime she gave me her hand to lift up.. well we were in bus and then after a thought came that where we are going.. then jackie called his uncle and just took some info to get to station and after some we got where we have to drop..

in bus we had to buy tickets but due to less money we just didn't bought ticket even we were standing and too many pplz were in the bus so we didn't needed to buy.... in bus we had long to travel for station caz ahd is a big city i called hardik he is living in ahd now hoping he can help me for money but he went to drop his father so he wasn't even able to come....

well in bus we were having fun.. first i was standing in front of an aunty... in bus there wasn't even enough space to stand over.. well we managed.. in bus crowd that aunty was standing near me and his face was close enough to mine face and i was like touching her whole body due to that crowd.. when i realized that thing i just turned my direction but that aunt told me to stand near her... duh she just pushed me near her.. i was like WTF... she started touching my budy surprising.. i was in big trouble she was seducing me and touching her boobs to my body damn after that i just felt some space near bob suddenly i just moved away... and after some time that bitch thought some thing and she went away to the sit of his some realation and she sat.. damn i was like oh thank god... then after that 2 hot girls were just having talk with each other and dhaval van and jackie were standing righte after em so they were just giggeling ou our talk... and all stuff then they both moved near me at some space... and it was still like crowd one of her started pussing me from her back again i was like WTF.. i didn't know to get happy or to get afraid... whatever i had to bear it...

that girl started touching my penis slightly with her ass and started moving closed back side... i was sweated and all of my friends were enjoying that..(they just had idea when bob told em)..

after that the crowd increased in bus... the girl was much closer almost touched.. all touched...

she started seducing me... i was sweating..

and she was just like sucking my penis with her ass.. i was like idk what it was afraid fun anger idk it was just going on and other girl beside her just pulled out her phone and typed her no in it and wrote in msg that call for love... but i didn't noted it (because i don't want to love anyone again because i know the pain...)

after that both girls went out at one station staring at me.. and after that all of friends yelled at me why i didn't took the no. well i was just quite van knew all about me so he handeled all thing...

well after that the bus stopped at one stop and the conductor went off.. for report i think and we skipped from bus one by one(because we thought there will be sudden checking and we well be caught and fine and all) so we just hired a cab and by luck railway station was near so we had not much to pay for it.. so we just took two cabs and went to station in between me and van just hided a packet of lays in my bag.. we ate it because we were much hungry and we didn't wanted to share it with anyone... it was nice...

at station we were afraid because we had only some few money and had to go home in next train because all had to go home and there wasn't even a train if we miss that one..

well by luck again mahesh found note of 50rs in his wallet we were yess damn yess... we bough ticket only 2rs left after that jackie got some 10rs saved and bought biscuit packet and ate it it was feeling like 64 sweet... duh..

in train it was rush for sit... well we were about to hope in before crowd does but we didn't because there were some old persons wanted come out.. soo we just gave up and let em come out.. we lost the sits and we had again to stand up but we just got the doors place to sit... a risky sits ever... we sat there.. and with help of music and talk we came back and teasing that persons out of train and shouting em slangs and all... that was awesome fun with friends i will ever miss it.. how fucked up we were.. tension some of mind games.. not paying for ride... getting seduce from a girl and aunt...escape from bus... that cigarette at empty stomach... that amazing movie fun... and those friends...

BTW those days i am so fucked up and i just keep smoking i can't sleep and i just behave as a broken heart... i am a broken heart... just friends came and i just have fun with em all but they also know what's going on with me.. just talked a bit with candy today and she told me something weired things...

when she asked me why i'm behaving like this and what happened with me.. i was fucking shocked that she don't even know wTf happened with me.. she did those.... a water just started falling then jackie IM me what are you doing i said talking to my x GF he asked who? i said candy i saw you a pic of her i use to put her on my phone wallpaper (that was because i thought i am just alive living for her...)
he replied oh yeah that chine... that made me smile..

i just got something that there's some other loving thing also instead loving a girl and getting hurt always.. bt i just ....

well candy went off.. and now i know as usual i can't sleep another night...

and just going upstairs to kill the sadness with firing a cigarette...i do smoke a lot those days and i don't have any regrets doing it...

WTF

2010-12-15T08:29:00.000-08:00

hey you all i am just writing what happened/ing with me iin those days...

exam days are like hell. i decided i will study a lot and hard and pass all the subject but the luck wtf with it..

whenever i prepare a lot the exam get ruins by something.
when i don't even read for exam it goes extreme superb.

well and after exam we all meet at jatin's room and enjoy hukka.
idk wtf in my mind but i lost half of my weight jatin and sank told me not to tense i don't know if i have some tension in my mind which are cause of that..

well actual thing is i am highly tensed family,love,money,friends,girls,problems all that keep sucking inside my mind aswell in heart.

those days i kept smoking a lot and hukka twise a day.bit hard study.
and all those fucking things happened with me which are not supposed to be.

fight with family
no curse
problem with money
thinking a lot about some people
career

and all...

idk how many times i do cry for nothing or something idk.

i just smoke smoke smoke and smoke and smoke andd smoke.....
maybe a hard pain inside my heart.

i am skinny much again.

and idk i keep cougihng all the time. fuck i don't wanna goto doc.

and exam suck like nothing..

we enjoy but i cry
we do fun but i take pain inside
i show my self better but no one knows what's that i hide

well

i just miss candy a lot and seem she don't have any kind of feelings for me.no time and one important thing no love.. maybe she find some way to peep in my heart how much i love her.

but the fucking thing is i can't throw her off out off my mind

she keep sucking all time

she stucked in it

she is the thing from which i am afraid of

i keep missing her and i miss her in every thing every moment if i see anything i get remember of her face..

somebody explain wtf happening with me..

all of my friends share anything and i just start word with candy...

why why why why fucking that shit thing happening with me..

i am sychoo maybe or yes i am

and she is the reason.

fuck fuck fuck get off from my mind...

i don't see any light that can bring her near me...

hope i see something to forward my life on...

those smokyy days...

2010-12-08T08:14:00.001-08:00

exams are on those days and i don't tense much about it.
because i gotta beautiful world.

those days are going in toxic time.it's actually exam but it's fun for us.
at first exam it was EEE and nishil came for night hold.
we smoked cigarrates and then started studying together.then after completing one chapter we keep smoking and then at late night.its winter season too much cold.we goto roof and there we start fun with hukka.

and that goes on everyday.
new thing is that we bought bottel of whisky.

when there was a gap between two exam days.we decided to get drunk and sleep at jatins home.

everybody was excited but nishil had to go for dinner with family and sank wanted to chat with rocio so me and jatin left.

we bough the bottle a lot of bitings coke and soda then party started in starting we were drinking a bit with lot of coke but suddenly nishil came and then he started drinking neat.he took 4-5 neats and then he felt down.we were shocked then we started taking it neat...

od damn we were totally out of mind.nishil kept asking for another one but we knew he is ou of limit he starts vomiting after any hard task.

then i don't remember what i did that night pooja told that i talked with her long at night.other friends got my idiotic messages and jatin told i was actually gonna hold at his room that night but he told i was suddenly wanted to go home he dropped me at home i don't actually remember how i came home and when i woke up it was around 3pm.i was hungry a lot and i didn't remember anyrhing about last night.
a rough memory was...

andd ahh what a great time it was...

after that night before the paper of EME nishil brought some whiskey at my home.
and then me sank and nishil was over here in my room.
we studied only a bit then we started smoking.
then comes todrnking we drunk fully tighted condition.and they smoked hukka uh damn

we did silly things as i remember we did pee by standing on the wall of my roof from 3 floor. and there some of awake old persons were staring us.we didn't even care.

then nishil started vomiting huhh he did that for half an hour...

uh it was fun though after that we went out of home at about 2am to buy some stuff we were hungry. we bough ciggarated and bidi damn...

and some biscuits.. we were out of mind we acted like dogs with the that stole holder.

haha we told him to make the bill in arabic language.... wTf

he did....

and then we messed up with dogs. we make noise then they bark and run after us and we go on full speed on two wheeler... :P

then again smoking and then fun..

over there we were having fun by firing the deodrent from lighter if you know the spray burns with great flame if we fire it... and nishil was taking video of that i didn't knew i had a poison spray to kill insects... suddenly i sprayed it on sank...

haha i burnt his some hairs... it was craziest thing...

then fight for space to sleep well... we fought like dogs. tottally hangover.

then they slept and i completed watching prison breakk.duh till 5 am then i slept a bit then prepared for exam.

mine math 1 math 2 was crap...i wrote some from dharti..

and some only...

well after that mos was today.
i smoked hukka alone in my room.

i was untoxicated fully loaded i was not even able to stand up.
i brought some new hard flavour from dishangs home..(we chilled with hukka at his roof also on same day... there were 6 firends oh dishang... duh it was fun)

then mos was a bit sad. because i missed writing of 25 marks... :(

and those days i started smoking ciggarates a lot a lottt same as chain smoker..
with jatin and every evening with van at bridge..
today we went to bridge me van and dhaval we have boght tea becayse it was much cold out there...

it was fun... uhhh

well after that we were again to jatin's room we smoked,hukka and whiskey also totally out of mind.. sank just slept over there.. it was funn..

and now i don't know what to do.. maybe drinking more... or i may prepare for last K.T exam for tomorrow..
whatever you have fun everybody....

smoking days... am i dragging life??

2010-11-23T06:16:00.000-08:00

hey..

i don't know those days are going or passing or i am dragging...

the vyvas are finished.and now it's reading vacation.so boring time i wake up late and then i don't have any plan to do..

well however that's just a part of life.

well i have been smoking more and more these days.i didn't one day because candy took promise from me.. i don't know how it worked.. i went to bridge also and then van and dhaval was smoking and i was just watching them.. that was a hardest thing to do for me.

but after that day i smoked double cigarettes hehe

well if you know i have asked candy to marry me.. she it thinking or whatever she's doing i am waiting for it.and i have told her that if she commits me i will leave smoking/decrease it.

yesterday that dld bitch told us to come to college else she won't put marks of vyva exam of ours..

some of went like sank,nishil,sunny,rajan...

i knew that bitch is just showing off.. so i didn't went and it was just a stunt of her..
she took lecture but she didn't took attendance hehe..

i was been to post office yesterday. i had some work over there.i went there after one year.. last time i went there to post candy a letter..

well post office is much technical now.technical boards good seats lots of computers duh but still one thing is same...

the old glue that been made from a tree..

sticky glue and they didn't even had something to glue.. the glue stick was totally messed up.. i had to glue it with my fingers.. after long time i had stamped the stamp tickets.. i watched gandhiji and netaji subhash chandra boz on stamp.. it was feeling quite good. uh.

i have bought the screen guard and surface guard for laptop its waste of money i bought a tatto to stick on surface and it was so costly still i bought it. i failed to stick it and i threw it away...

well this transparent guard is not placed well however it looks like design so i didnt messed up..

with family i am behaving rude much rude...
i want a bike and they dont get me one even they know i really need it..

i don't know whats going in their minds...

today sank called in morning and he told i will have to go with him.. he didnt told the place but i knew it was R.T.O office to get his driving license. i know that is boring process ever and nishil dragged me over there without telling where we were going i wasted my 3 hours with him standing in ground. my full body was sweating..

damn..

and nishil didn't told sank that he went to R.T.O office even he told me to come at his home before we were going...

and that sucked my mind they fought and i was in middle.. they sucked..

they fights and they take me in the middle and i can't do anything..

so i just told sank that i am going on long drive with someone.. he kept telling to cancel it. i really didn't wanted to go..

and then he told that i am going much more into the girls.. i was shocked.

they have kept telling me that i don't have any gf from baroda and i show attitude to girls and all and i don't have daring and i am after that taiwani slut..and i am gay...

because of that i made some friends(the best one in baroda so that they have been jealous)..

and he added that i am not watching friends because i have some girl friends..

i replied you should think why that happened. and he tld i made him alone..

huh he really have to think before speaking a word.. i never told a word when they go to college without me on nishil's bike not even when they keep teasing me with gay..

and never argued even there's not a fault of mine..

duh i don't want that.. nomore..

fuck that lusty egoistic friends...

i've used to band myself a lot..

sank txted me that he canceled plan and i will have to go tomorrow with him..

i am not gonna go with him..why to waste my study and time after that lusty friend.. duh i wont.

andd i forgot to add that he told he will gimme treat of vadapav... damn you asshole do i look like a beggar?

and i am not even a worker of yours so that you can keep ordering on me..

well i have studied DBMS today and it was quite fun with books.though i just finished one chapter only..

i have 6 days left for my examinations...

i will have to solve 3 K.T out of 6 and to pass in all regular subjects... a preety good task..

but i know i will do it..

today i bought a bed seat.. from my money i asked mum that she is giving me money or not.. she told i will have to ask to papa.. i just unleashed my piggy bank and bought one..

everybody at home was just like watching WTH...

that is soft one and i bought that because i really needed one.. papa took one away from my room and i was like sleeping on floor so i bought new one.. from my saved money.

even i bought costly weight grainer from my own money.

well okay now

i am signing off..

a bit hardworking boy

deep :) thank you...

those smoky sad days...

2010-11-18T06:28:00.000-08:00

hey there..

hope all things are alright there.. because nothing right happening in my life now...
i don't know that's right or not...

whatever many things happened but i don't wanna share anything.

there's just a thing smoking in life now.. vyvas and submisions going on so i goto college and i missed vyva of yesterday because i woke up late...
and then time keep passing.. uh

those days i am just converting into a chain smoker.. me van and his common friends goto a bridge (definately i found that place).. and we buy different strong cigarattes and then we smoke and yesterday even we bought beer and we went to mac'd i was veg. but i bought non veg meal.. and on..

after that nishil and sank came at night they planned to eat eggs they aren't allowed to eat eggs from home..

they wanted to experiance it for first time.nishil was the one for first time.

and then we went to eat eggs.. we almost ordered all the things from the menu card.it was fun.they decided to night hold at sank's home but i didn't wanted to let em know my feelings because i don't like someone make fun of my true feelings.

and so i just lied and yesterday it was the night when the "PAALKI" comes home its the time when god marries and after that they roam in whole city.. soo i just was been at home.. completing my BE asignment all the time and watching prison break.. dhaval a FB friend reffered me that.. that is a awesome season...

and then i slept at about 4 am... i and now we aren't going on bridge to smoke.. maybe i call dishang today. and we will definately have fun.

my life is so fucked up and that's why i use to smoke.. however..

i just love someone out of limit..maybe god gonna punish me for that..

what a time...

2010-11-16T11:13:00.000-08:00

hey you all..

these days just passed same as hell...

before one day i was just talking to candy she started asking about pooja and she went furious about it.. and she thought i love her... i dont know what was in her mind but she was thinking much and she told she's hurted a lot and i don't knw she didn't told me anything..

she made a blog and she wrote that she wrote she is much hurted and all most of all crap about me and pooja yea i like her and that's not a love feeling however and she is not my gf..

and she was crying whole the day and on the same day pooja and van came to my home just to umm make some project actually they wanted to spend some good time..

and i gave them that...they kept kissing pooja was defending her self and she kept yelling on van he was just using her to.. and pooja kept shouting don't and we are not togather and all however... we were enjoying companies...

and we made her cry because the video was not going on correctly definately tht was her drama.. she is a drama queen...

the day full of fun my parents are back and they watched pooja going home and mum just asked about her i didnt replied...

papa was bit angry..

and at that night candy was feeling odd i didn't knew what to tell her she wrote she knew that she will have to feel the pain when i am going away from her but she didn't knew it would pain that much and i dont know she was just feeling messed up..

and i was not able to watch her that condition that made me much sad and i just went upstairs and started smoking..
and i kept thinking all the things and after thinking all i decided to ask her out for marriage i knew that was idiotic but i thought if she commit promise then i will be able to do anything for her..

i told her that thing and she didnt accepted...

i confess today that i never ever tried really to save money to go taiwan.. i tried a lot to make money to go over there as Ebiz and crapp...

but that was not real thing just...

and i thought if she promise i will go much serious with that and all study and i planned to live in usa and all silly fucking plannings...

well she told she is afraid that she might break the prmoise... and just my mind went into blank state i was not even able to think on something and anything was running in my heart..

tears started comming out of my eyes aswell heart.. i dont know what was that just deep breathes i was not able to stop it..

then i just told candy to leave me alone and for many hours i cried yea that was crying and the other reason was that i want motor bike so badly and even that stress and all i was thinking all time for sucide even i was about to ready for it... but before some fucking article popped up while i googled how to jump for sucide and i started reading that shit..

some faces popped out and some feelings and some promises so i didnt...

well i just puted all the ele. things and just gave em to papa and wrote a note to him to let me buy some bike.. and i kept crying and then i dont know when my eyes were closed... from many days i am behaving so rudely with parents and all because they dont even wanna know how much it pained when i came home by walking 6 kms alone...

for twise..

that's....

and i was out from whole world for one day.. submission college and home and bed...

sank did the same his parents are behaving rudely with him... thats also the matter for bike..his bro cancelled the plannings of him...and he hates his bro for this..

and these days to kill the pain inside the heart i used to went out with van and his other friend to smoke out of city we smoke and keep chatting...last night was with dishang smoking on his roof..

thus day are passing....

tomorow is bakri ied regards to all muslim bros and have a great time..

everybody gotta holiday but i do have coll and pooja and van coming home tomorow so that will be a good time i hope..

my files are not complete and i dont even study for vyvas so in first vyva we went out of our roll no seq we went last.. and kept talking of outside things with mam... today in DFS i got revyva and then i had to implement a program..by luck i was sitting on the same comp. where i used to type the same prog.. i just copied it...

and... alll....

that's the life i have to face.. goodbye and have a good time you all..

after long time again..

2010-11-12T08:01:00.000-08:00

hey folks... i know i am not publishing blogs everyday but i dont know... i am not even busy that seems a bit boring now..

well these days were of my exam...exactly i was not preparing for it.. i was just chill.. i had 5 remidial exams.. duh.

two papers on a day..that's :P

i was not even preparing for exam even if i got whole the question for it...
i used to stay at sank's home at night definately for study but we didn't did it...
i think sank was calling me at his home because he wanted my laptop for video chat with his mexican gf..

i dont know however we were chilling..

and these days i started talking a lot with pooja.. she id my old friend we never met but we used to chat on orkut and FB before long time actually she was GF of vandit.. if i never explained him he is good friend of mine.we used to bunk togather in 12th (he was in 11th when i was in 12th). he is a cool guy nice nature and open minded..
pooja and van was been in relationship from last 1 year.they broke up a month ago.. even they used to fight a lot and everytime i was solving it.. at last they broke up for long...

diwali vacation is going on and so that we used to chat long.. all the day i think and even she dont have friends (any).. so i was just giving her company..even she wanted to make friends but as my past experiance with nishil i put her away.. even sunny was asking about her and nishil as usual ashhole told sank to make setting of him with pooja what a asshoole even he knew that i like pooja and he have a BF.. damn bhadwa you are real time punk..

yea soo me and pooja used to talk a lot.i let her add sank because i expected he will behave greatly...

he is behaving good but he is also flirting a bit with her.. a bit is okay...well i use to tease her all the time.. and her pet name is vandari(monkey)... lol i use to tease her a loooott... thank god she do not feel bad she is a great girl...respect for her is increased to much...

well we chat till late night even i had exam..she dont sleep till 5 thats holy ....

duh i feel fallen with her..
well however today she told me on FB (she didnt gave me her cell no. but actually i had)and she told she wants to make a video CD of his bro's photos and she asked me to come my home... i was like a bit surprised.. and i told that okay.. and i was just wondering.. she told she wanna come right now... i was like damn WTH.. i told that my exam is just completed she told she dont care and her college is starting from 15th. so i told okay..
duh after that i told her my address and she didnt even asked for my number i was waiting for that...

when i told her to take it she told she dont want she will find.. i told okay. and after some time she asked it from me..

she told she will come in half an hour duh i watched the room it was messed up so badlyy i was rushing to clean it.. i was working like mad i make up the kitchen cleaned the drawing room.. cleaned the table.. and all.. duh i dressed my self well (okay actually)..

and i was waiting for her..i was watching movie then my phone rang.. i dont pick up unknown numbers actually so i didnt and then she sent me a txt to pick up the call... duh i was just behaving like eww ppl... that was crazy.. and at last she came to home.. and she knew that no one at home..

first of all she observed the room and then opened bag and pulled out the laptop..and then we started talking friendly and then much closely...

i think she was just seeking a chance to come home because in 10 minutes she told that she will make the video from some proffesional studio... i was just...

i advised her before that she might goto soe pro. but she told at least we can try duh and she brought a lotttt of pictures with her.. her chilhood pictures and some of her bro's it was crazy hehe..

her bro was half naked and with tie lol it was funny before she came i sent her a pic of naked boy and told her to make video of this because that's your bro.. lol

well after that i told her that we have time what she wants to do.. she told we can chat.. we talked a lot of different things... about my past my future and all..

in between she told me that she wants to watch pic of candy i told her i was in relationship with a girl through internet she knows all..

she was just like she was mad to watch her photo i dont know why she was acting like that when i told no... she poked me... duh that was...

after that i kept telling no and she kept poking me... duh that was...

we started fighting lol that was haha

after finishing that she kept beging to watch pic of candy.. i was on same answer.. when i asked why she wants to show her then she gave silly answer that she never watched that kind of girll... i told thats not your real answer... then she told she was just furious to watch her...

still i didnt showed her pic of candy..

then we started talking about of here there.. she kept asking me why i didnt made any GF from my city.. i replied her that are you inviting me or making me greedy??

she was kept smiling...

and then we talked about her relationship and all....
in between that van called me and i told him that she is coming my home.... he told me to call when she lives.. pooja came at about 5-5.30 and vandit kept calling me every hour and we kept talking...

after that my irritating friends nishant and archit came home.. and i have puted curtains off because pooja told too...

and after they shouted my name i pulled out the curtains and pooja stood up to watdh who is there... and duhhh they watched her... i told em to hold on.. and i went outside and told them to come after some time... they shouted why are you having fun with your girl friend i was like... speechless... pooja heard that.. but she didnt told me a word...

after that again van called and plumber came to fix the motor... duh i had to watch after the plumber.. pooja was getting bored she told i can call sankalp at home.. duh that was i didnt wanted to call sank.. i told he is busy with something... and on...

she requested me to make deepanshi her friend.. i told okay i will think.. that was because she is alone and she wants to make friends i think..

after that we were talking of here there and she told uhh i never knew that you are that much emotional.. i told her that i have told you that i can make anyone to feel all the feelings she replied oh so you are making me to feel emotional??
i told duh idiot she is such an idiot...

i asked her for drink for many times she was like no and no.. idk what was in her mind..

and on and on... she told that i am great guy and good looking also..i might find a GF easily i told are you offering and she laughed...
duh i had words to tell her but i didnt told because van told me that he loves her a lot...

umm after that we talked for 3 hours and umm that was nice time she didnt wanted to leave but she told she have to leave.. she made her mom to give up for job today... that was idiotic thing.. i am happy she did that to talk with me..

i felt she is lonely and she was even showing me the middel finger and she spoke slang for two times.. uhh i was surprised she was open with me...

that was cool enough...

and i spent great time with her..

after that when she left everybody in neighbour hood was staring her and after that at me.. i was like duh..

she told me bye and to meet me on chat again..

i felt happy..
at least now i have a great female friend..

after that i went with sank and van called he told he need my great help and he loves a pooja a lot.. he will come tomorow. and he asked all what we talked on and did she talked about me and all...

he will meet me tomorow and he wants me to patch up..idk what gonna happen..

well other thing is i had exam of BE today and jasweer sir came to moderate... he was acting strict in starting but i knew her act...

after half an hour he came to me and asked will you pass..i was like yea i think..

he told that whenever he come online he founds me and nishil and sank online for always...

and asked when do you study...i was like.. :P

after that he asked who knows all the answer of q. paper i just picked one.. he told me to sih beside him and i can copy after that he told everyone can copy... everybody was yeayyy....

all were copying like mad....all suplements were here there.. i took 3 and till last i didnt even knew where my supplemens are.. lol that was funny..

in starting i sat at second banch and at last i was at second last bench.. that was best paper ever even in all paper happened same...

in one paper of DBMS some strict teacher came she didnt allowed us to cheat.. i made chit and i wrote many thing from it.. and even a guy wrote whole the ER diagram on black board and he designed it in fancy way that no one can judge it... we copied it from the black board that was idiotic thing ever.....

ROFL mam didnt even noticed...

tht was cool exam ever...

and mum dad are at vasad spending good time of vacation... and i am alone here...

and thats what happening in my life.. and i will update more things but till goodbye.. enjoy the time..

a far post..

2010-11-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

well idk why i am not liking to blog today.. actually i am feeling laziness with it..

however these days are going okay.. diwali time here so its vacation in college and i am chilling at home like sycho i think...

right now i am at vasad using net from mobile i tried a lot to stay away from internet but i cant..

i am vasad because family wants to pass sometime here i thought at least i will study over here...

but i cant went to watch movie golmal 3 and action replay these days both are crap...

the theater at here vasad is super :P... vulgur chip public.. damn smelling theater chairs of woods... duh it was :P

however these days we all are at home just using FB and watching movies its my remidial exam from 10th.. i had begged for imp from every teachers duh

i sstarted smoking one ciggarate at a day thats i dont know why candy hates this and she told she will also start smoking to feel the same as me.. duh i told her not to play with it..

well i just started talking to her after i felt that i cant live without talking to her.. i dont know she told me right i am as tatto in her heart and she is the permenent one in my heart...i dont think i can ever stop loving her.. :(((

whatever it is nice...

and last 2 days i used to stare her at cam what a feeling i was not able to control my self i was feeling one side romantic mood.. whatever she is in exam these days...

well new year yea new year was yesterday i had expected a lot of income on this day butt idk why i didnt had much...

new year started with yell of my mom she used that to wake me up as i woke up sunshine made me feel good direct on my head.

and i had pllaned to watch candy as soon as i wake up... i just watched her i loved the starting of my new year.. now i will love her whole the year (whole life actually)

and i miss dest she is busy with her study i told her to be on on my newyear but she didnt even replied...:((((

and i dont think theres any new thing..

dipika is busy with her some stuff i think she didnt even send me FR on FB and she is not messaging a lot to me..

well archana talks to me a lot usual i treat her as i am ass...

lol i keep using to tease her all the time.. and even she feels bad.. lol she is fun.. and uh she haves a house in vasad beside my society... thats good co incident i am getting much intrest in her.. shes a great girl i think... and she also keep suggegsting me songs she have nice selecting.. :)

i love her acts...

well and other thing is that we enjoyed a lot at evening of new year crackers wild fun at sanks house we were firing crackers with fun throwing it on each other... and then we pllaned to buy some desi hawai because and we went to buy em but cause its banned and last day so it was prblem though we bought some with high cost and went to my roof... it was just fun and papa yelled because someone died in neighbourhood so we went to sursagar(name of a lake) and we fired and had fun over there.... that was amazing awesome fantabulous new year ever..

that was with sank,nishil,me,dallu(common friend on nishil and sank he is a nice guy)..

and just the time passes thus and now i have to study because i dont wanna fail... i dont have other things to tell but whatever i am happy with the life at present.. :)

submission day

2010-10-29T10:51:00.000-07:00

hey all these days i am sick much and even i am not recovering from break up... i dont know how come i wake up by watching her pic in my phone as wallpaper and i just miss her a lot...

however she had messaged me as i reactivated my FB.. and he describe the things the main thing was that she broke up because we did not have future pllanings.. and she blamed her self also.. however i just replied her with i love you..i was speechless..

well my morning was at nishils home we three were sleeping on double bed... uhh at night sank and nishil fought as fun with me.. i gota snatches on face and on fingure.. it was fun well at night while nishil was talking to his girl friend he told that i am gay and i know he was joking and he explained her that they tell me gay because i do not have a gf... duh that was embarrassing.he would realized but i didnt said a word at time..

sank waited for his mexican gf to come on msn but however she did not came and sank found her biggest crush in relationship with someone... that was sad we just made fun..

and yea at morning we woke up and moved for gym.i forgot my bag at his home.. we exercised and just back at home i was hungry mom dad at vasad and dadi made tiffin for me but i forgot it..
sank and nishil go to college on motor bike of nishil.. i go alone in shuttel.. thats sad howeve i can not blame anyone..

at college sank had to pay the exam fees he told me to help him with some ruppees but due to some reason i cant.. he yelled i didnt knew if he understood the matter with me...

we bunked the lab and went canteen and just finished lunch and then we moved to class and we knew that today is submission of DBMS it was like hell i kept writing for 2 hours continuosly dhara came and seated before me but however i was not intrested one common friend of dhara told me if i puted some chocolates in her bag i told no i am not that kind of idiot... however he was just spying..

in this 2 hour i felt like hell sneezing headache submission and coughing.. what a boy wants bad than this... :P

after that we give up and just decided not to submit the journal today...
we will do it later now..

i came back home on motor bike with akib..i was much tiered i came home called pratik he was about to give me some work to do.. i wanna earn some money this diwali..

and still he did not gave it tome..

and after that i just slept out i was tiered... deepanshi woke me up and it was abnout 8pm i think i was feeling coughing i just had dinner and the medicines after that i just opened my yahoo yogi was on and duh we talked about candy and after that my study he advised me nicely i am motivated to clear my backlogs and cleaar all the current subjects.. he is a nice guy having great mind..

he told i cant mess up with my life because of candy but he should know how i am feeling he advised that girls are like shadows we dont need to follow em just make em follow...that was a nice lines however..

now i just waited candy to type to me but she did not i dont know why i did that but from tomorow i will not do same i am gonna concern on my study.. and i ll work hard whatever it takes. i wanna watch happy face of my parents.

now i am just waathing movie and i ll sleep downstairs because no electricity in my room. i might smoke a single sigaraate because i just want too feel like...

i am moving upstairs and i ll be back watch movie and then will sleep tomorow i have gym...

well have a good time you all... )

i am not publishing that blog saving as draft i dont want anybody read this now...

candy i miss you a lot and i love you a lot..

this days

2010-10-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

i know i am not gonna publish this post but still i keep writing because i like it...

well yesterday was great i woke up at sanks home after that i watched my phone wallpaper.. huh what a feeling that was...

and when i looked around sank was out somewhere.her mom told he is out for driving.. and after that i walked out for home... we decided to bunk college yesterday so i had nothing to do so i kept coughing..

i dont remember what i did actually but i just kept playing game and nothing else i tried to study for sometime i failed..
well that digital logics are fun i think..

intresting subjects though i failed in 5.and at noon i just kept doing same nishil called me to check i didnt sucided or what becuse they know whats in mind..
however he went to meet his gf even she have exam.. thats great and he called me because to make plan to go somewhere outside and have fun.
we decided to go out at noon at 2 and i was ready to pay for sanks petrol.but wtf we just ate vadapau and then after decided togo out for roaming we almost roam whole city.

but these days each and everything remind me candy i just keep trying to move her out of my mind but god dont let me..

each little thing remind me of her.. like if some couple is holding hands duh that kills me like anything..

uhh.. after that we just went to just chill and drink cold drink whatever intense was to just pass good time.we talked of here there and after that justt we put off the gym class and just at home with that f feelings and coughing sneezing..

i came back and i bought 3 flip flops this is because i dont know i wanna gift one to papa.. and yea i have gifted papa a super costly shirt from money which i was saving for taiwan however i dont care with it now..

and papa he was happy like never before.i like that..

at night i called sank and invited to smoke just at time that irritating boy sumit came and he was just sticked to me he came for movie and software he is irritating sticky idiot person...me ans sank was bored much still he was not moving at last he did.. uh thank god..

and then we went upstairs and started smoking we are usual not with this.. we smoke then it take us to the untoxic state and we just keep talking about anything..

however some plans some sadness and love and feeling chat goes on.. that remains for about minimum half hour... yesterday i took all the smoke inside and i was just same as drunk out of the mind.. just a great feeling like flying... that was great..

when i came back in good state i knew i kept kissing the wallpaper of candy and just keep talking about her... (she is still holding the place of wallpaper of my phone)

however that was just great feeling for sometime..

night was at sanks home he bring me because he need a laptop to talk with his mexican girl friend everynight however.

she didnt came last night sank kept waiting and we watched movie atlast...

when i woke up sank was out for driving and i moved to home... i prepared myself for college and sank texted me that he is goin to college with nishil on his motor bike..

i hate this unity breaking thing.. :(

at college it was sports day and football match i was late in dld lab i wonder that idiot teached permitted me to enter even i was late...(after i know the college was having sportsday and they didnt had rights to take lectures today)...

i felt a bit intressting practicals in lab (i kept missing candy).... whatever i have finished joining one circuit..that was the first successful thing ever..

after that some sir came and told not to take any lectures just send all students to the ground... i was shocked when i heard sigma football team was in final... we decided to watch the match and have fun.. me and rajan went to pay fees for this exam everybody moved out of college for home that was idiotic we were searching em everywhere in college.. and as we lost in final i moved out of the college because rajan told he will come after submitting the journal today was last day and submissions are goin on.. i cantdecided what to do.. duh that is much boring..

whatever i came home and just slept sumits call woke me up he told he is downstairs and uhh he came for that job work which i told him.. i didnt had that at right so i told him for tomorow..

at evening candy texted me with containing only "why?"

i didnt knew what to do talk with her or not well we did talked she asked if i dont want to talk to her... i just wanted that but i told thats okay with her...

whenever i talk with her now it hurts like i am dieing that unbearable pain.. duh
:(((((((

now i am in room electtricity is lost and i am writing blog with sweating...
mom is holding place at vasad with papa painting work of home goin on...

i was been to hosital today because i was sick much and after test doctor told me i am alright to me..

i know what that f alright means.. maybe i have got h1n1 or that bone in mind wanna move out... i dont have any idea if i am dieing...

whatever i decided i will do smoke at night in my room without caring for anyone.. thats only the thing makes me feel good..

goodbye..

i am not publishing that blog i am just saving as draft because i dont want candy read that even i deleted my fb account she asked me about this today...

i just dont want to talk with her because i cant bear the pain when she talks and i get know she dont loved me (how can she stop loving me... i meant how can anybody can stop loving anyone.."?)

i just uhh even i am hiding from her at yahoo... invisiblity... i just spy on her by watching her FB page and updates.. she is geting habbited not to talk with me... she will be used to it.. however i just wanted to keep telling that i love her so much...

and i just miss her cant forget with time.. duh

goodnight..

the day of break up

2010-10-26T11:28:00.000-07:00

hey there today is 26 and i am sitting at sanks home he dragged me here idk why maybe he was afraid that i dont commit sucide or something however...

he is playing game so i can update my blog now...

yesterday i had break up with candy... yea that 3 year relationship ended atlast..
before describing that i wanna tell something about the day.. it was just normal one mom gave me some money for shoppping i was happy much and i went to shopping with sank because i am bad at shopping some one must have to watch me when i do shop...

i boutght some jeans cool flip flops and a cool jeans shirt....

now comes the break up thing.. i am just saving that draft i dont even know if someone gonna read it or not.. i dont care ia m writing because i just wanna pop out taht fucking feelings..

from some days i was monetizing that boy and candy was chating much with him..(i just knew doont neet to think about the way)...and i decided to ask her about that because i never wanted that she drag the relationship because of me even if she starts loving someone else...
soo i just started with this.. she cleared that she dont love him.she just like to talk with him as friend and at that moment i was a bit happy i think... after that she just told me that she sttoped loving me that.. and i was shocked like i felt that i had passed whole examination of BE with 9 SPI... that was uh unbearable i ddont know what feeling passed from inside it was hillarious and she told she loved me but she sttoped loving me before sometime i dont know what type was thta...

she offered me to be a friends i never want that it keep hurting so i never want that... however atlast she told me to find some good girll..
i was speechless and i didnt even got words to say i kept thinking and on and on and on...

i dont know what it was about but i didnt even cried my crying means it just automatically eyes get wet and if i am hacing much sadness it turns into red.. i was just thinking nothing like a deaf... i dont know what it was but i felt my face was heavy and mind wanted to pop out of the jail...

i dont know what happening now but i just deactivated my FB account and yahho is offline... i am just far away from world living in some other world... i cant feel mind i am much sick today...

i am not blaming any one.. not any piece of the world.. i just want that sorrow life...

however i ll be used to this i hope...

and fuck i love that girl sooo much more than value of last oxygen in the world...

damn and fuck that is fucking asss unbearable damn hasshing shit feeling fucking my moind every fucking shit moment i cant bear fuck myself fucking damn assshit...dumb
pull jack ass peep in out eat the shit and get lost to the world of the shitt...

thought for life...

2010-10-24T11:01:00.000-07:00

hey there...

these days i am sick... duh much coughing,sneezing thats irritating thing.. and that is unbearable.. duh i got swine flue...?

idk i hate going to doc.. i am not afraid but i hate the smell of it and... :P

well yesterday was bit nice nishil woke me uhh he came in my room and i was sleeping like dog half naked... he kicked me i think he must tried for many times hehe..

and then gym i can do the dips and the dumbels uh sets with 2.5 is geting usual now.. and it does not pains after exercise...after that came back at home and did all the common stuffs..

i dont remember something special thing on that day...
andd after that was the last day for fun.. i played counter strike for whole the noon duh i was acting like a pro wuh.. that was nice and at evening all the same sticked to laptop watched movie knocked out i liked that much.. great one salute from me...

these days painting goin on at vasad.. wuh i am eager to go there now...
well and on that day i had rested because i was sick much.. :(
and after that umm i dun remember what i did..

evening at 9 me sank and nishil decided to enjoy and smoke because we pllaned to start the hardwork for study.. and sank told petrol tank is empty and even he hate dragging the vehicle to pump... plan flloped but how can some dare not to.. we went by walking at nishils home and then went and smoked wuh that was feeling like heaven.. the place is awesome.. we can watch the peoples running...

i wanna describe the place.. its full of dark thats actually construction road no one comes here only some couples for privacy(you may know for what they come...).
where we park the vehicle theres a old building of some.. crap thing.. that place gives peace and privacy..we can watch the city road from here.. i feel all the peoples are in tense and running for money and all thing...but i have just mastered in all of that thing and i am passing best time of mine life.. whatever that feels good...

and yea we smoked nishil for last time he will do when he watch his marksheet with all clear..
i smoked(yea i took permission from candy).. i dnt wanna lie her because i love her and dun wanna lie for that ever.... :X

after that we pllaned to sleep at nishils home and we talked a bit and started watching play.. i was watching second time..and we were laughing like mad at night 1am.. :P

that was fun and on the double bed we three had to sleep :P that was like sleeping in only one pose..

at morning alarm of mobile woke me up we had to go gym but we sttoped the alarm and again kissed the pillow.. hehe
again when i opened my eyes sank was punching on my back(definately he was trying to wake me up)... then he gave up and he also slept :P
at about 9.30 we all successfully woke up and nishils mom was making tea for us.. i brushhed today with my hand sank also duhh... that was odd but had to..

and i noticed all family of nishil was togather for tea that was a nice thing...his parents are nice..and we talked about here there and nishils bro(dr maunil) started teasing him with khandelwal hehe it was fun against his parents :P

then umm suddenly we decided to go for hair cut and then we went..:P i have a cool hair cut spikes+rough xD

over there one idiot didnt gave me space to sit..duh that was irritating act of that old person.i wanted to kick him but i just worked with slang...:p

and that was a costly cut..:P
have to payback to nishil i borrowed from him .. :D

then home and as i came i puked :P bad bad bad bad bad health :((((

and then i went to doc cause mom yelled and yeayyy doc was on leave feww..
then i called dr maunil bro of nishil.. he told to buy some medicines and i took em..idk i didnt felt much well but better now...i am still coughing :(((

mom made "vedhmi" woow i love that..but i ate in limit :P :((( sad sad

i love when she make that for me.. and specially on sunday...

as i came upstair i thought i need to rest then i setted the alarm for 4 and i went to bed..the amarm woke me up i turned it off and slept again.. when i woke up it was about 7.30 i think... mom yelled...i went downstairs and just had dinner and mum was goin for shopping with deepanshi oooooo she bought cool t-shirts for diwali.. impressive...

mum will gimme some bucks for shopping tomorow woooo it will be fun...

and yeaa i watched the exam timetable... look here you will get mad

29,30,31oct 2 exams on each day.rem for 3rd midsem.
25 to 1 nove 6 exams for k.t in 1 year
2 to 9 dec 6 exam external for 3rd sem
and submission also... :(((((

i need impossible hard work for all that...idc i will make that thing true.. marksheet with all clear and 6 SPI...
<3

after that i played s.w.a.t for some time after long time.. that was fun i am mastering now... :)

now if u noticed my grammer lenguage is poor because i am missing my girl and aswell that anjana anjani songs make me loose control.. <3 <3 <3

i wil watch a movie and i have college tomorow i will ask for imp tomorow for rem.. i will rock... :P

and yea i forgot one special thing..

i started flirting with jasmine villegas... i am getting approach... xD.. however she gotta cute pics i have saved some like mad.. damn.....

okay good night everyone have a great time.. :)

22.10.2010

2010-10-22T11:03:00.000-07:00

morning -

i woke up at sanks home after much noise of alarm and i stopped it and then back to bed...

when i opened my eyes it was 9.00 duh we both woke up and at home.. when i completed dressing up i watched in mirror my eyes were looking much dull..it was doobed.. and headache.. so i decided not to go college and have rest..

when i came upstairs i watched candy online and talked a bit then after she stoped talking with me because of the smoking thing... :((

and then after i closed all the things and after lunch i had bit rest.. i kept missing her..

and then sank's call woke me up.. he told we are going to take dinner outside.. all the friends and i told okay...

when we reached over there i watched kapil with nauman ooooooo damn i was shocked that he first time joined someone and he joined us.. :P he is the top scholar of the college.. however sank told me he was a flirto before joining engg after that he turned..

idk exactly whats matter but i was happy.. everybody asked about my health... and even i was not feeling well they didnt missed chance to tease me.. thats the common thing we do to every one..

i wanna describe this today...

we tell nishil - baa,zero figure,khandelwal(surname of his new gf) she is rich and khandelwal is a hhuge sshop of textile...and many other for nishil

akib- he is from bharuch so he speak vulgar lenguage like he tells bhaduch (bharuch), bhudi (bhuri) an we also tease him with name of his gf tammanna by singing that song from APKGK xD

kinchit - he is a healthy boy having good body so we dont mess with him much but when we need we tease him with his gf's name margie... :P

sank- the diff things some of many personals but he loves a girl and she looks chinese so thats the one..

rajan- definately by miley cyrus hah he is not fan of her he loves her..and sometime we also teases him by his surname patil...

and thats all and i am not idiot that i am gonna write what they tease me with.. :P btw they tease me with dhara and candy and other most one i dont wanna share..

and then we decided to goto roam in the Tibetan market that's the place where tibetians come to city to sell the clothes and many public rush over here...

however as we reached we heard some odd Tibetan or chinese i dont know what it was..now everybody gotta chance they started on sankalp and then after me... however i missed her... nishil joked that i may send anything to candy if i want for free by this peoples.. :P

hehe he started showing me all these girls and telling do that looks like candy... :P i missed her :((((

well here we had fun and nishil decided to gift a dress to his gf...i like that dress but idk how to send this...:P

i liked the jeans over there however flip flops also.. we had fun roaming over there..(mom told she will give me ruppees to buy jeans because diwali is coming wooo)...

umm after that we talked and had fun... when all of em left me,sank and nishil decided to roam somewhere and just putt the stress down... we went to diff place nishil dragged us to one place and it was for smoking i dont know what i was thinking but when nishil gave me a cigarette i remind candy and i threw it away.. both of em like aww wtf... i told em about that matter however nishil told he didnt told any gf that he is smoking and even they will not have any problem with this.. whatever i think i started controlling with this..

after that i took em to the place where no one comes black shades just like a jungle peace was spraded and they definately liked the place..

and there we started talking of here there and jokes and about the things...

then we started some personal talk nishil told some about his gf and all..sank told he wants a gf and both of em told me why i am dragging my relationship... i was not able to answer... i didnt knew what to answer i just i answered em that i love her..

and then we started dancing because today is shard poonam (full moon) and after the navaratri that is special day sorry i mentioned yesterday but its today also...

and that was fun...

after that we 3 started doin pee on the road (no one was there) and even that place was scary a bit

here we decided that we will study hard and show our result to everyone..
because our group is famous in whole college and we just need to proove our self even our parents are much tensed with that thing.. so i am throwing net off and starting working hard...

nishil decided that he will not smoke until he dont pass in all subjects.. tomorow we might smoke because its last day/..

sank told he will not flirt with any girl...

i decided i will not play cs and no other activities no FB i have only 1 and half hour for all this...

and it was done.. this time i sure we gonna do it.. however thats running in heart also not only in mind..

and thus the day is over now i ll sleep after watching that gujrati play(natak)..

past two days...

2010-10-21T21:45:00.000-07:00

as i updated last these days were of vacation... on yesterday 21.10 we went to college...

i was on night hold at sanks home we decided to write assignments but we started watching movie... hehe

and sank was on cam chat with his new gf :P
that is fun his gf is Spanish and she don't know English hehe sank keep using google translate that is weird...

we slept much late about 3-4am... and woke up at 9.30 the time of college.we rushed and on that day i had fastest bath ever..
though sank and nishil was late... duh they told they will not take much time..:P

and me and sank went college nishil told us he will reach there late..
and when me and sank went to college he was in class room duh..

we have already bunked our lab because we had to complete the journal... some of those who didnt had the lab on that day were sitting in class room.. i watched dhara after much days...and nishil seated behind her i was far away.. nishil and rajan keep teasing with me this.. duh idc

that day in college was one of worst day ever...
i gota result i failed in 5 sub passed only in 1 with min marks...
that is not fair i know why they did to me.. princi told not to pass those all irregular students... and even my teachers didnt got salary so thats i expected.. i didnt passed even i worked hard...

and i kept writing the asignments whole time all friends were having fun but i was writing and on the time of submission i submitted my file and they didnt because they didnt completed and they started yelling that i broken the unity and all...:P

why its fault when i started working hard and they had fun...even... i donnt wanna write much with that.. duh

and at last lecture it was boring lecture ever i had... dlds bit** she sucked like never b4.. i wanted to keep kicking her ass... she was duhh.........

and after long survive of 5 lonnngest hourss ever we moved out of college gate nishil dropped us on half way he had to goto meet his gf i think..

and that fucking thing atlast ended on the road me and sank was dragging our selves not waliking like we just had break up and we had lost of billions of ruppes...for remove stress we ate pani puri that didnt worked as i reached home i fell down and i was like unconscious state of mind i was sleeping on the floor like a dog...

when i woke up i felt some hands moving on my legs and that was of dadis hands.i yelled at her that what she is doin.. she told she started massaging my legs because i was shouting that my legs hurting in sleep... duh idk why she was massaging even i never did same to her even she is of 65... duh i decided to do this from now on... :)

and aftter that i went upstairs and talked a bit with candy...suddenly unbearable pain started in head..:P
i went downstairs to get some tea... and as i touched the bed i felt asleep... i even forgot that candy is waiting..:P
huh you can imagine the stress..

and when i woke up soft hands were moving on my hairs.. that was mum and i felt same feeling when i was child and she used to do that every night to make me sleep... that was the one of best feeling of the world you should have...
my head was in her lap and her hands was moving in hairs.. on that time i felt i am free from all of responsiblity and i am in heaven one who cares a lot for me was with me.. how i dare to get afraid

:P

i though a lot and i decided i will not tell result to my parents i will work hard and i will pass in remedial and thats just a good decision i think..

and then i came upstairs.. candy told she wanna learn tu jaane na.. i was surprised but as i think thats just she wanna sing alone.. i accepted this and told i ll teach her at night (i was goin with sank just to roam around)...

me and sank moved out for a walk we were just walking and awesome feeling that was... all shops were closed no much vehicles out side and peace was over mind... we fogot all stress that was a good thing...

even i started thinking to sucide or goo far away from this idk why that f**** things come in mind...:P but some things makes me not to do this...

and after that umm we came back that was much late we didnt had idea with time we ate sandwich outside and soda..

after that i just moved to his home and he started talking with his gf and...

well yea now candy wanted to learn tu jaane na.. i tried but she was not singing.. i thought she will sing with me.. she refused duhh... that was not worth...:P

and after that all i watched movie and slept late...

at morning i heard alarms and i just stoped it and went back to bed..:P

we woke up at 9 am agian and i moved to home.. i started geting ready but when i was doin with my hairs i noticed i gota headache and eyes were popped out and went all red... duh i decided to bunk college and have rest at home ...

after mum watched that she yelled on me and told i will have to go to doctor today idk she will surely drag me there.. its yucky place i hate the smell of it and i hate goin to doctor... :P

now i am trying to rest candy dont wanna talk with me now because she hates much smokers i told her many times i left smoking but she is not belivin i think she is busy with other stuff.. and i dnt wanna spy...:P

i remember that lines ...

jindagi ni ek sachi rit
"shanka karine barbad thava karta viswas rakhine lutai jau vdhare saru"

duh well now idk what i ll do now... maybe playing game...

however goodbye all have a great time...

20.10.2010

2010-10-20T12:26:00.000-07:00

morning --

i woke up at 7.today morning sank woke me up because he came to call me for gym..
uhh and we went.. i started working hard with it... duh i feel my muscels

nishil also joined gym.. he did after watching our muscels..

well idk whats goin in his mind..

in morning i was cleaning my room because diwalli is coming on so i cleaned it up and while i was spraying the insect killer it suddenly came over my face i swallowed a good ammount of it...

and that was not worst thing now i know now what happenes when you eat poison... experience makes man batter hehe

when that happened first 3-5 minutes i was just watching the dark black light..mind was stopped... after that

umm i gota headache it was trouble opening eyes and was having trouble with breathing at that moment i thought i am gone... last day of mine...i shouted as louder i can.. and after than i started vomiting..

on the floor on stairs and bathroom was flooded.. dadi was afraid watching that she asked me what happened but duh it was uncontrollable...

duh after that i just sttoped and then i went to doc and on..

he told me to rest and i did rested in noon after long time..

noon was a bit rest and evening all friends decided to bunk the class and
goto some restaurant to have fun and there i went and me sank nishil kinchit akib had fun.. rajan refused to come because of vehicle problem...

after that i went to buy pen drive i wanted from long time all of money is been spent now... :P

and after that i umm talked with candy a bit... and then nishil came because we have submission tomorow and have to complete asignments and we decided to smoke..

and we went to buy and and we bought by having much trouble because we had to hide.. what if some relative watch me.. :P

after that i told candy that i am chilling on roof... hah she caught me and she made me not to smoke...

and as miracle i didnt nishil was shocked duhh...

after that we talked of here there sitting in mild wind and great atmosphere... nishil commited her gf that he will marry her... duh he was taking that as joke before after that he fall in love... however thats good..

and then i noticed i cant watch the stars due to heavy light and much polution... thats sad...

after that moved to sanks home cause he was geting hyper with this...

and here we started ttalking and sank started watching movie duh plan for write asignments is flloped again hehe now

here two girls gained my attention.. one is dipalli she is teacher in ahemdabad and 5 years old than me.. shes a nice girl i have met... and she talkess greatly.. wuh i like that..

and the other is archna shes a indian lives in usa andd shes a nice girl.. however she didnt had any problem doin friendship with me... duh i like keep talking with her... damn she likes game same as me... we are different in music selection :P she likes lady gaga super crap huhh...
:P

well now sank on vdo call with his new gf... she dont know english shes spanish.. uh.. however he keep smiling thats nice though...

now m chatting with archna and by side watching movie..hahaha damn she is telling that i am good boy LMAO lemme watch her howw asshoole i am xD hehe

:P

well

everybody have a great day.. :) bye from deep jani...

19.10.2010

2010-10-19T10:28:00.000-07:00

today morning was at sanks home and as i explained all heppened at evening gym and after that we went to nishis home because sank told i am gonna watch their driving.nishil dragged us to the place he wanted to meet his gf and it was place of tution class.we bunked it.and we met akib and kinchit over there they bunked class because no one was there duh..

we talked a bit then nishil went some far to talk with his gf.

and then me and sank left from there... at home i talked with candy.. and while talking with her friend gaby. i sent a link of a video i didnt kknew it was scary.. i sent by reading the title ROFL hahahaha.. and i heard voice of the girls shouting.. i though by fault i shared some porno thing... it was scary... and then idk they slanged me or whatever candy damn wtf she can break up if i share that kind of video.. she can break up for that little thing..

notice value of relation...

i told sorry for 3 times and one more...candy told me idiot not once for twise and retarded even she is not satisfy with that... f... damn my eyes are red and one last left cigarate is recommended damn lemme enjoy with it..

have fun everybody...

i dont know what to title..

2010-10-18T23:09:00.000-07:00

17-10-2010

morning was normal as same as noon as past days...

at evening it was last day of navaratri called dashera.on that day our lord ram killed the biggest devil we can call who kidnapped lord rams wife sita maata.. and ended the big war between devils and humans.

so that on every dashera we celebrate firing the statue of ravan and get happy and pray that bla bla bla bad things get over..

on that day every year cultural association of baroda arranges the program of "raam lila" (the play based on lord ram) it is the play of our holy book "ramayan" (same as bible,kuran shariff)..

and soo we freinds decided to go over there and just have fun and enjoy the last day because from another day college were starting.
so we went and during this nishil came to my place to pick me up and sank was waiting for me.. duh he yelled much togo with nishil without informing him.i thought nishil had did that but idk :P

well over there we had fun a lot.. and rajan nishil and sank kept teasing me with dhara duh...

:P

after that we went to an old temple of marathi peoples me and nishil went for first time.. i was a pretty good though a silent place and holy atmosphere.after that rajan left from over there and sank,nishil and me decided to come over my home and smoke on my roof (not much safe though we started) hehe

i bought a whole packet but i think have to leave that thing off.. :P

and on.. on that night i had to sleep so early because me and sank had to goto gym early morning and i had to wake up on time for this.. well i tried to sleep at 12.30-1.30 i failed i woke up from bed and started playing guitar(and yea i learnt playing many songs strumming)..

i was missing my girl soo much.. :((

after 1 houur 2.30 i tried to sleep again but i was not geting succeed because mona dont let me sleep uh :(( idk when we gonna meet now maybe after one year next navaratri (i hope that dont go true).. however when i watched the time at last it was 4 almost..

after that i dont remember how i closed my eyes though i missed my girl out of limit this time...

on the other day on 6.30 my eyes get open and i hear noise of two alarms i set on last night..my eyes were turned into red..though i went to gym

its 18.10.2010 now

me and sank went gym i didnt had the dress though i did started exercise.when we were about to finish it.the manager of gym called up downstairs i though he might wanted some sign but he told to wash some dishes of the pooja to sank and told me to clean the hall.. damn we were shocked however we did that.. after that he told to clean the ground and put out the garbage..that was another shock however we completed that.after that he told up to put the heavy dumbbells upstairs we did that.. if i start doing that at home i will get new vehicle in one month.. and sank didnt even did that thing ever in his life.that was a :P

on 9.45 am

we did not decided completely to go to college or not.. well nishil called me and damn he tried to make a joke he talked in girls voice and told me thats mona hehe i caught him however..
then we decided to go and come back in two hours else we may have to stay there full time..

we went bunked first lecture as always and finished lunch in canteen.(thats our routine) we chill in recess time watch others findhing places in canteen hehe...

there's a thing if i buy a cold drink in canteen my whole pocket money for the day gets over.. i think everyday that i will save some money to go out of state and meet my girl.. but i fail everytime.. (i do save some sometimes)..

and after finishing this we goto class and get know that whole staff is on strike because they didnt got em sallery (happenes only in india)..

and soo we chill some time..

after that we decided to waatch our result i watchde of 3 subjects and i failed in 3 (dld,b.e,math) i dont know about other 3... :((( i am sad because i really worked hard for 2 of this (not for math)

andd when we decided to go home then the security caught us and told to be here till 5pm :P

we went back to class.. and we see one of our idiot dld teacher giving some lecture in class.. we asked her permission for entry..
we were discussing outside that to go or not ( i noticed dhara was staring at us thatss not me)

and we decided to rush in however our damn teached allowed us to enter even we were half hour late (she dont allow if we are late for 5 minutes on other days) we were surprised.. when we walked in we get knew that we have to write the notes till 5 o clock for no reason..

damn we all felt we are studying in play group or 1st std.. :P

and when i sited back to dhara me,rajan,nishil,sank that teacher told us to sit away so me and sank moved haah rajan,nishil didnt and they kept teasing me for that i didnt had any reason to sit after..

well i wrote about 2 hours no other was writing only some bhaumik acts as geek but he is not,kapil topper of class,dhara idk why she was writing and the one sited beside dhara he is good friend of her...

and i was sitting beside kapil so i was simply coppying from him.. and dhara used to just keep asking kapil things for no reason... duh xD

i was copying others were enjoying i started enjoying with em also.. we take pages and write silly things and keep passing it.. like this time we wrote "donation for crackes for this diwali" and"donate for clothes for rakhi sawant and mallika sherawat" hehe and we write our name and donate silly things... \m/

i wrote osama bin laden and i gifted 50 rocket launchers for this diwali and 100 piece of ak47 + free ammo... hehe

on that day i knew dhara is much friendly with everyone muchh more than a girl need to be with..when i told all of my friend that i dont have any feelings with dhara..rajan and nishil kept shouting my name at her back and they kept touching her..:P hehe they sttoped when they really watched me geting no jealous...

there is a boy sid he is blackk (same as coal) and his hight is same a bamboo.. :P
he plucked dharas chic and on that time f i wanted to kick on his black ass...(i ll do this later hehe)

and yea when i completed writing me and kapil went to dld teacher to show her what we worked on and he bc mc r*** wh****( pr******* chi*** told us to check it our self and show her after that.. and when i told her that i only need 2 more marks to pass i wanna watch my answer paper she told she will not change my marks any how... damn kapil also slanged her a lot... whole class do that now even girls..

meghna was with me to check her.. she did same with her and she also slanged her hehe :p

after that on the time togo home two friends of class one is sagar and other is mayank fought (verbally)..

because we made good fun of mayank because he sticked to girl and we kept shouting him to convert his gender.. :P

hehe it was fun though i dragged security person over there and damn that idiot also started watching that drama instead stopping it.. girls were laughing on this idiot security (duh i got attention hehe).. i kicks his ass for that so that he stopped em both.. :p

that didnt stopped even downstairs in campus :P than all finished and at home i bunked the class because i didnt slept.. i had headach and stomach :P

and at home i found candy on after 3-4 days because i missed her a lot.. i felt great talking with her.. and she was busy chatting with her friends.i told her to finish and in this time i decided to take a nap.

i had rested nicely papa came twise upstairs to call me for dinner i was sleeping like a pig.. :p

hhowever i told candy to ring my phone when she finish.. she didnt that was most dissappointing :P

and sank's call woke me up he told he gotta function of navaratri out of his home and many girls are there even he called some friends.. and the star bhumi is coming.. i went there then candy rings and :P i wanted to watch her face i came back home.. we talked a bit and i went back...
we didnt went downstairs we were enjoying from the gallery).. :P

and after it ended we started movie i watched full "chain reaction" :P

and i slept at 4am :P at morning i heard sanks papa was knocking to wake us for gym and after that her mom for college.. but we will go gym at night and we gotta holiday (because of yesterdays drama of dld teacher)...
andd as i remember that i told candy i will wait for her at morning.i woke up 10am that is early enough.. and as i reached home i turned the yahoo thing on even brushing my teeth.. :P she told shhe will be back in one hour but it is two and more now and f*** i am waiting for her....

duh idk if she will come or what... :((

i am still waiting..
cause i love that girl..

diwali is coming everybody cleaning home... colouring goin on at vasad home... deepanshi told they colouring pink one in my room duuuh that idiot girly colour in my room.i wanted blue.. well whatever i hope you all must be waiting for diwali when i was little i was waiting for my bday because all festivals starts after that... and i used to buy new clothes eat sweets,mukhwass and do lots of fun with crackers when i was little... huh waat a great joy that was...
even i liked collection money as bless from elders.. duhh i miss my days..

idk what pllanings i have on this diwali mom told we goin on trip but as always i gota exams and it gonna spoil my diwali again... (that thing spoiled my last trip also).. :((

hope all thing goes well... i dont wanna fail anymore...

well pray for me and keep sharing your exp..

have a good time you all... :)

yesterday + today

2010-10-16T13:47:00.000-07:00

sorry i didnt updated blog yesterday i was feeling lazzy :P

yesterday morning--

common
did nothing played game and nothing else...

same for noon

yesterday evening--

as pllaned it was 8th(aatham) day of navaratri and the special day of navaratri..
everybody dressed up well and went to play garba

before that i chated with candy... she wasnt feeling well and damn she made me worry..

huh idk wth happening to her :P whatever i prayed (did pooja) for her...

yea and thats new thing i started doing pooja idk for what just started doin it every dday. i feel better.. less stress.. :)

and after that woooo we enjoyed a lllottt
too many girls and we all were in mood.. we played stylish ones.. xD

and thn after there were two girls.we werent knowing em good but they were alone and both was neighbor of nishil and sank's friend.. aah they used to play with us(else we) no they wanted....

and both kept asked you have gf :P all were shocked how f***.. :P

well i didnt had any answer for this (we made fun of sank by just patching one of her with him hehe)

and thn nishil just turned the thing.. (thank god)

i didnt knew what to answer her... maybe i can tell her yes i have and should tell her but she lives in other country our relationship is on net (i dont mind and i dont shy by telling anyone that)...

well i enjoyed a lot in garba outta limit..

during break nishil went out of the ground and he draged sank with him and rajan also went after em... i was alone with raviraj (one of my friend he was with us to play garba these days)..
and one of idiot friend of sank (he is irritating) and that two idiot girls they wwere chatting and giggling :P i was bored and when i called nishil he yelled :P.. damn fuck after he came back i told him about this hahh he told sorry :p (i hate when some one dont explain thing and just tell sorry..)

and after coming backk at home (garba near home were ended because we were late much)..

and day ended...

during this day mum papa and deepanshi were been to vasad...

today morning--

same no change woke up late and on..

same for noon--

evening-

nauman came at home to tell that he wanna sell his computer...

dishang came to get a movie transfer in p.d he told me to download one for him...

and he gave me RS for pendrive we bought one in part.. but now we both want indivisual..

and todayy on time to go for garba.. sank told he dont have mood for... nishil told he is goin with her gf(he didnt told me he told to sank)

they crushed my and rajans mood (raviraj also) :P

so i just started talking with 2 girls i just found em on fb and she is from gujrat... (she tells me bro :P)

andd thn after i went to sanks home wearing good clothes because we pllaned to goto street garba.. (definately for the one)..

and huh she didnt came..

after that i bought a whole packet of cigarate (damn somebody help loosing these :( ) m geting addicted.. uhh

and noww i m just goin to watch movie or something... i ll have fun

ALL OF YOU READING PLEASE PRAY FOR MY GIRL TO GET WELL SOON :( i love her much..

good night sayonara shabbakher shubhratri (definately dialogue of big b yeay KBC is on again)...

okay good bye enjoy the tim.. :)

14-10-10

2010-10-14T14:25:00.000-07:00

its 3 am and now m updating my blog...

morning --

as u know nishil and sank were at my home at night and i went to bed at 4 am i was waiting for candy's reply even she was off i thought she will come on.. she didnt uh.. and nishil was talking with her gf.. and onn...

after we sadjusted our self i slept nishil came downstairs at 6.30 am and when sank woke me up at 10.30am uh nishil had rest for 4 hours only.. :p my one eye is red.that happenes whenever i am sad or much feeling or i dont sleep..

noon--

common i waited for candy's reply sank started flirting and that thing made me tu start again and even some how 2 girls were comin but idk why i didnt...

i felt nishil and sank were ignoring me because both were busy with girls (i never did that to em)...

whatever

evening -

5 pm time to gym sank was late and we went at about 5.45 and because sank had to go for driving class we finished it \fast m geting used to gym body growing up i feel...

and at home at about 7 pm candy talked with me i waited for 22 hours

as we talked she asked me for song and i told i already sent it to her and on she started i was a bit sad but i liked that atleast she talked with me...

as she told she thinks i dont love her now how to explain how much i love her...i cant

and thn rajan came at home for garba.they took promise from me that i ll stop crying (yea because i was super sad)and i ll go to play garba with em for all of rest 3 days...wwell i went with em and played garba too many girls were there and i was sticked with my phone( was chating with candy)and all of my friends yelled at me that why m not watching girls around and talking too that one.. i answered that "because no girl around world take place of that one" definately they laughed and told me mad :P (thats usual now)..

and after that nishil left out with her gf on drive i think... and i sent a txt to him that i ll provide condom if they needs (and her gf read that msg and she told me cheap uhh :p that was a joke hah girls cant understand that)...

and thn me rajan and sank played garba with fantasy too many crowd of girls were around uhh disturbing X_X

after that sank told that he wanna come at home and he will see that girl (idk why but he is helping much to patch up with that mona the garba girl)
however i take thta as fun...and rajan also came there as usual as i reached there mona watched me standing there and she stoped playing garba she stood by side and started staring (and my heartbit was 1000 ps)... sank was excited but as i watched her bro or someone was standing with her today(actually whole family her uncles house is over there and she live at other area..) and as she stared after that she told something to her bro and he was also staring to me as he wanna kick me... :P

after 2-3 minutes she and her bro (or watever he was blackk ass) started walking in my direction uh i though they both gonna mess with me but that black boy started his motor bike and mona sited on it.. :P and they just passed from me..idk if he is her bf.. :p idc

sank was crazy with this... he just went to her pleasure that she left near parking and he checked the note we left on it.. and the box was empty (sank made a good drama that he is talking with someone one phone and sat on her pleasure and checked it out wisely wohh)

he found that note is missing means she got it or her father or her bro or bf whatever and sank found a broken keychain of lord ganesh from it... woow i m gonna save this as craziest gift from sank... haha i liked that he dared for me and thats why i dont make him stop...

well and then after we came back to home and talked a bit about here there and they left now i am in my room and if u cant belive i smoked a mint in my room... wuhh i am gonna leave that because candy do not like that i smoke whatever i ll leave that..

and now m goin bed because my eyes are red and those inssects keep siting on my body... m goin in gym u know hehe.. :P

well now i am gonna miss my girl a lot... however i cant move her out of my mind and she thinks i dont love her :P
and damnn how come she doesnt feel that i love her... means she dont have any feeling for me

i would have bear if she told that she doesnt love me... but how can i bear when she tells i dont love you... (i noticed many teaars came outside of my eyes when she said this..) i cant cry just tears comes out with feelings.. she didnt even told me she loves me in reply :(

haah i didnt had any word for these and yeaaa i found reason why she wasnt talking with me because she reads my blog dont do that baby... (no other one reads however)..

thats just same as my personal diary (not personal actually hehe)

andd yeaa whatever i write here is for fun and the actuall thing as that i love youu soo much more thann sun have fire more than bill gates can hire more thann the water drops in the sea..

much more than a mother loves her child...

i love you so muchh (STOP READING MY BLOGS)...

crazy day

2010-10-13T14:49:00.000-07:00

hola all of you here i have some special for you...

morning

nothing intresting woke up late at 12.30pm and thn did nothing intresting just yahoo and played guitar...

noon

nothing played cs and just mess with guitar...

evening

here comes special thing.. went to gym and it was awesome training be the one neighbour(he is a good body builder aswell trainer)....
and i feel my musceles today...

at evening everybody planed to goto play grba but sank had problem with moneyy soo we canceled it eveen nishil canceled goin out with her gf and we me sank and nishil decided to smoke at my home(hiding obviously) and we just had fun smoking with guitar..

we did enjoyed time and thn i went out to buy some cold drink and on the street there was a garba arranged... and i watched the red pleasure (name of a vehicle uh) GQ 8560 hehe i rem that because i roamed much around with this...

and when i came back i took a promise from firneds that they will come out with me to let me watch that girl...

uh we waited a lot but i didnt watched her after when i watched her and she also i felt she was shocked and she was joyed (thats my thinking i dont know actual thing hehe)and then i sank and nishil watched.. actually she was playing garba but she stopped i think only because she watched me... :D

and she was also staring at me and sank and nishil told that to go to her and ask her out but somehow i didnt went and even they told me to sign her to come back side but i didnt after that they were irritated from me and took a promise that i ll leave her my no in her vehicle... and she left just by side me ( i didnt dared because her mom was with her..)

and then we came to home sank and nishil told me many abusing things hehe in firnedship because she was giving me line and i was like idiot..
however after that i told em that i know wheres her home and soo they told me that sank will put the chit to her vehicle andd yea we went there like most idiotic way and we also have video hehe... there i write a chit and my number annd me and sank went to her home and there two dogs were sitting uh though sank was just goin forward anddd wee ran in the compound and droped the chitt... and we just roam out with happiness i was feeling like i passsed engg without any k.t hehe

and i gave em tream but wth when we came back ssank got remember that the pleasure was black but she had a red one.. and i didnt even watched the no...

and even i dropped the black chits also sooo....

the idiotic story doesnt end here

we decided to go again over there (that was muchhh riskyy)
but sank told any thing for friendship huh thn now i felt how relation means to person... woooo :)

and thn we went backk this time sank alone went and puted another chit in and draged all other pout... and i was happy again..

i felt soo good not because we droped my number to that girl but i was happy because my friend helped me aloot..

however we smoked much today on my money almost after that nishil talking with her gf and i am typing sank sleeping today they are staying at my home.. :d

idk if we gonna do some more fun now..

however i am feeling good

annd candy uh she told when i messaged her that she is busy talking with her best friend pheobe and she asked fomr some time even till now she didnt replied and that hurts much... uhh how sad damn... (lemme leave this)

and noww idk what gonna happen m goinn to sleep i think tomorow sank told he will drag me to that girls class to ask her out hehe lemme see what happeness.... :X

:D

whatt a crazzyy dayyy i will write more about my crazy thing.. :D

goodnight all of you enjoy your time... :)

traging day...

2010-10-12T11:11:00.000-07:00

morning-

i wake up early becuse we all decided to go for movie(early means 10am)..

and yea one by one we woke up and decided to really go for movie when everybody woke up..
sank was bit late sso we went on super speed becausse nishil and rajan were waiting on multiplex..atlasst we went on time...and enjoyed movie.. and we caught one of our college mate togather with a boy of other department hehe it will be fun whn we meet her now...

noon-

after that nishil told me to sit after him because sank was goin to drop rajan and they had to go with nachiket(one common friend)it was his bday and they planed to go outside and roam somewhere...
nishil told me to come with him i asked sank what to do because nachi is good friend on nishil and sank i am just friend we are not much famlier till..
sank told he is coming after dropping rajan.i thought he will come back but on phone he told he is not coming.. wahtever we went over there (sindhrot) a famous dam where couples come for enjoy other pplz come to roam because itsa nice place and hehe after watching water we decidet to have fun in water.. and we jumped... after having 2 hours fun we enjoyed like anything after that nishil's bro he was also with us offered cigarate... i just smoked hehe..
and there one of nachis friend brought his guitar he was playing damn good.. huh he told i ll be playing same as he after one year if i practice...let us see what happenes

evening..

huh sank called nishil for gym and nishil talked rudely.. and i think sank is jealous with nishil and nachi's friendship whatever he got angry he didnt evey picked my phone upp and even i went to his home he was out :P..
and i passed some time at home rajan called me to go for garba or not but everybody is messing up wid each other... i cant judge wth happened with sank he just over come on me and slanged me for everything even he was not picking phone that happened on yahoo...
however he is engry with me and i joined gym by puting my own money because parents refused to gimme more money..

i didnt ate anything from morning i am hungry and i am not gona eat anything because i am dissappointed.. :P :(

about love-

i composed a song and sang for candy...atlast i finished her wish.. i k i sang baddest ever :P... as i warned her she will be dissapointed after hearing this :P
however i played guitar nicelyy for her.. i just did because i love her a lot(else no one is that much lucky that can hear my song only few friends and family only :P)

candy dont have time to talk with me idk wth happened with her... but i feel god is giving me return of some sins i done in past... hah i am suffering...

when i talked to her she told she is busy watching a movie...

damn fucking time bc mc mkc c l b :((((((((((((((((

fuck the dayy i am watching movie if that can gimme some power to control on this saddest feeling...

have a good time you all... gbye...

12-10-12010

2010-10-11T13:38:00.000-07:00

untiming blogging...

these days navaratri is going on... much colourfull dayss

these days are goin well no one can arrange for free passes for garba i am paying much to play garba uhh.... :p

and its fun though i cant play well i learnt again to play greatfully from sank..
and special thing for those days were that my girld didnt talked me from much days..
i cant find why god keep taking tests..

when you love someone so much you cant get love back

if some one loves you so much you cant give love in backk

if both of you love many circumstances comes after your back..

no one did understood that life and no one can....

i know i am writing like fillosofer but as i read some where that pain and love maked you to feel like fillosoffer... you do whaatever you didnt wanted to do in love and after love.. that thing is most amazing and youu get pain and fun both with both of things..

well i started smoking almost regularly now i need some one to make me stop with this..
on the second day of navaratri i went on sandesh ( name of famous garba ground) and i found dhara over there... i am just explaining this because that was fun (that my friends made of me).. they thinks i cant even dare to talk to her.. how to tell em i love other girl whos living far away from me as much near from heart..

haha i cant explain in which mood i am now because it is hurting but still it seems like fun (damn)...

in navaratri here too many girls and boys i watch and too many single girls also.. everybody enjoys the time with each other however couples get a cause to meet each other freely and spend some great time... and singles get freedom to find some whom they loving and i cant decide in which catagory i am.. uh

today after long time i talked with candy...and that phillosofy was for that because she was talking with other boy instead talking with me... (dont judge me narrow minded but there's the thing that if you talking with ur bf after long time you should show some sense) maybe she likes him.. idk but i am feeling fucking sad with this..

i joined gym today and its fun though i weight some off...but its good i can feel my muscels are jumping inside wuh...
i started spending much moeny again gym,guitar,garba,other things movies and all...
idk why my parents dont understand that thats only the time in which i can live my life after that i have to take over all of responsiblities...

who knows i just think to go outt from this damn world but when i ssee there are many peoples who loves me a lot...
in my room here manyy insects keep roaming but now i am habbited with this even some off are like my friends now because they keep roaming and i dont even kill em...

now its too late (i was waiting for candy to be free for me and gimme sometime but she didnt) so lemme goto bed with sad feeling (it seems differently) though ffun...

good night all of you rejoice the time as much as you can.... goodbye...

06/10/2010

2010-10-06T10:59:00.000-07:00

hola!

these days exam is goin on :P

who caresss you may think i am busy in study :P

you are wrong! i am enjoying in my exam days aslo!

you might know my schedule!

i wake up at 8 (early these days hehe) thn i check my laptop(everything is on it damn my love :D ) thn i go downstairss and thn i take shower and alll i started drinking juice everyday(itsss damn super pee......) but i do becuase my girl dont like me skinny :P..
and thn i come upstair open yahoo and talk to her and study simutaneously :D
thn i goto exam and backkk and thn i just do here there and other else i talk to candy!

thhnn umm these days i use to sleep at sanks home! because we both are bored of study and have some fun at his home our parents thinks we are studying hehe we waatch movie till late night!1 and enjoy time :P

hehe these days idk i feel tht papa should buy me a vehicle! m in trouble becausee m much reason i dont wanna tell!
andd the other intresting thing is my girl really want a song from me!! hehe (damn thatss like begging from a begger) :P and her friend likes my voice i wonder! haha

these days are like one of my day dreams i am doint whatever i want...

i feel free though i wanna confess one thing!

if i ever wrote i broke friendship with one of my friend andd all yea i wrote i rem.
i dnt know why i am acting rude to him...he wanna go better again but idk why i am behaving so rude!

maybe because he told much from limit! whatever All gona be well! :P i hope so!

andd my dadi she is getin much old damn i cant stop kissing her because i know she gonna leave me soon (i cant cry but if u can watch my eyes its wet :( )

idk how m gonna bear tht but god is ashhole!

i just hate himm for these! why he gives much happineess and thn bring sadness back!
thats weired and he is ashole... cant belive read tht and judge!

(sprry i wrote by wasting much time but i deleted because.... idk! )

i love my dadi....

huh exam day

2010-10-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

hey pals i cant update blog regularyu but many strange things happening!

navratri is coming!

damnnn toooooooooooooo many girls nearr home (they come to shop and my area is much famous for shoping)...

wooow we friends go to roam everyday without any reason how ever i havee to buy 2-3 kurtas as i told!

btw today it was my exam and i performed a preety good today!

yeaa sir came and gave me paper what aa luck i knew some imp que and i thought i ll miss to touch the passing marks but after some time sir told he is giving us 10 minutes to cheat andd after my back neetu was sitting uhh! cool girl he helped me a lot!

well thats preety nice of her... beacause i though she shows attitude but she dont :P

nice girl again! hope that happenes tomorow again :D

andddddd sankk woow he gotaa jackpott he was sitting behindd kapil (scholer of sigma)

he told he ll score about 85% and my mouth wasss oooooooooooo :P

m not jealous however i hope i ll pass!

well now i have something intresting!

deepanshi's friend uhh she comes every day andd yesterday i was making tea for myself and she was staring me like anything uhh and that wass :P

thnn me and deepanshi started fighting for fun thats what we doo everytime! :D

andd during thiss deepanshi pulled my short andd damn she was jstt standing beside after that i looked at her face andd she was like omggg (like she was seeking for strange thing never seen before :P)

and today again JB came downstairs with anvi thnn she knew tht jb came for me and she also knows tht i kiss anvi evetyytime whn i get her soo for that she kissed anvi and thn she passed her to me uhh :O

:D

:P

:X

XDXDXDXDXD

:P

welllll jb and deepanshi alsooo told tht my t shirt was looking soo good and damn i was looking handsome i was like

yeayyyyy :D

that was impressive complement though!

here election time goin on

idk the time but every party on campaighnnn huh they only come for that!

idk if riot fight gonna happen after this again whatever!!

i am not gonna vote anyone this time! :)
and nowwww i have to readd Data file structure uhh again! :P

i am simutaneouslly enjoyinh talk with my babeeh!

after many 2 days!!

2010-10-01T10:14:00.001-07:00

sorry i didnt updated for 2 days!!

because i was enjoying my lifes good moments!!

well these days i am at home!

sitting all the day in my room only!and actualy have vacation for study for exam starting from sunday but it is boring i keep playing cs and chating with candy maybe sometime dishang calls me at his place and yea i am explaining this after...

nishil is trying to patch up :P but idkk why i still hate him!
damn he told candy a b**** andd too many on herr :P fuck u ashhole! duh!!
unexpectable! sad :P

well these days i am doing nothingg just havinggggg rest all the timee chaating with my girll and itsss fun!!

sank used to visit me 2-3 times maybe he is geting bored else he thinks if m gonna be mad or something! well i love that time its rejoicefull and these days shradhh is goin on soo i have to go at archits house everyday for lunch:D and he is a bit fun!!

i never explained "RONAK" the brother of archit but he is a good friend of mine also!
he iss with nice bodyy and black colour his story is weired and i dont wanaa explain this!!

i have fun with this pplz at noon(i wake up at 11.30 hehe)

annd after that i come home play game/chat with candy annnd some time i peep in books also!

well before 3 days as i wrote dishang came andd hukka all fun!

we did repeated it again on next day he bought new flavour and we had fun! whoa!!

though tdaa we didnt because i got snatches in mouth anddd 2-3 red spots :P

humm study is boring....

i talked with candy and i wonder we did because she refussed me that for many times!:P

it was great moment for my ears :D

i dont know how come i started loving this girl soo much!
and i am afraidd what if she leaves me (god you will have to pay for this if that happenes)

and yea my girl hates that i smoke! however thatsss because..... :P
anddd she is worried that i m gonna meet her or not howto tell how many lochas are in it!!

damnn :(

well i just love that girl more than i do love myself!

there may some reasons that can kill you and it doesnt matters how strong or whatever you are!!
and she is one for me! :)

well i dont miss college because even i talk a bit on FB or with phn to my college friends!!

todaayy was awesome for me! and now i am goin to watch movie !(i pllaned yesterday that not to watch from tomorow hehe now m repeating that again :D)

now i am signing off!

deep jani!

hope you will enjoy your life alsoo! :)

girriddin!!

2010-09-28T10:27:00.000-07:00

heyy folkss deep jaanii reporting on 28-9-10 11 pm

i really dont know what tooo wriiite butt i wanna write somethinggg

todaay wasss awesomee andd i did what i doo everyday annd nowonder in itt

but at noonn i smoked att jatinss roomm one black me andd sankk hukka plaan cancelled damn theeyy made me mad about hukkka and sank andd jatin toldd tahhhht theey donnt wanna smokee hukka haah

at eve disahang camee to homee we pllanedd to smokee hukaaa at hisss homee onn thee upp stairs onn roof

andd damnnnnn it wassss sooooooooooo cannnt explaainnn

i amm digging all the timee after itt watt toxiiiic uhh damnnn
still in mmmmmmmy minddd uhhhh screenn isss movingg lighttss andd mousee is dancing

goo to heeell wholle worrld

i aamm goonna diee tomoroooww

annnnnnd everyboddyy whomm i hate goo too helll againnnnn

damnn

and i loveee

my granny

deepanshi

mum

papa

destinee

my some friennds (except nishhant andd aarchiit they suck my minnd)

annnnddd

I LOVEEE YOOU SOOO MUCCCH CADNY.......

goooooooood niet

bad night!!

2010-09-27T11:25:00.001-07:00

hey there blogging on 17 its 11.56pm monday!!

today was quite diff from all!!

however i wake up on time(i set alarm for it)...after that i did completed all things and howcome i did studied for sometime! after that i had to go at lunch at archit's home(they invited me because shraddh is goin and they needed a bramhin so i am the one!)

i had a good lunch at his home as everytime! and after that we just watched tv and some...
at noon i watched a movie named miami vice! and it was good !

and suddenly sank came to ask me for a condom uhh i was surprised!! (he knows that i am only one that hide condom in my room yea who knows when i need it :D)anddd when we watched it was outdated hah!! he wasnt telling me the reason for it however after that he planed to buy new one! and whn he came back he told that his friend needed it! :P

annd at class time we were been to class but it was holiday because some thin.we didnt knew huh! after that we three me sank and jatin planed to go at jatins room and chill for sometime! and over theree as always we smoked(black sigarate i like most)!! whoa and it was fun over there!

and the eve was same i talked with candy and howcome we both dont have any topic to talk on hehe its :P!!
SUGGEST ME SOME BUDDIES O_-

at night!! archit and nishant came directly in my room damn without permission uhh!

they sucked my mind!!

after that just now before some of minutes i went downstairs to find something to eat i amm sooooo damn hungry! when i found that deepanshi ate all mine things what i kept to eat! i got angry and we both fighted! i kicked her slammed her and damn she was crying!!

i am sorry for her now! :(

whatever girls are :P i ll make her hhappy tomorow!!

and yeaaaa i forgot to talk about tomorows plan we planed to rejoice the hukka at jatins room woooo!! gonna fun!!

bbye everybody leme waatch movie now! (curious case of benjamin button) :D

nite everyone

2010-09-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

reporting from bed!!

i knw it was been 4-5 days to my last update but i was in some trouble!!

thats common for me now!! btw it was visarjan in city and it was asusuall good for me aswell bad also!

for those who dont knows the visarjan!

its festival of india in which we put our gods statue(murti actually) in our house (some of do and some of do combine like one big one for a socity and....)

at 10th day we put the murti in lake or something called visarjan!

and here in baroda its a huge festivall because too many marathi lives here! they worship ganpati soo much!
and during these visarjan peoples come with dj's and all some with playing old instrunents and in all of this! the muslim peoples get irritates(because our idiot public do some acts to make em jealoous)sooo as result fight takes place riot fightts with stone some times bombs and all!!

however it wasnt successfull this time police got controll on it!!

well however i have some pics of visarjan!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/janideep/

you need to check em!

:D

however these days i am home because i am having boring treatment! :P

no college no classes nothing! just rest at bed!

uhh i am allowed to use comp and to study because exam is coming!!

and this time i dont wanna fail! :)

so after that i should be busy with books hehe

and the bone after my head is increasing woo :P maybe god is calling hehe!

and i just had hair cut bad one this time damn i look :P

andd now i dont have anythin to share soo just have fun everybody!!

thats the truth

2010-09-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

why do i write blogs!!

because i knoww!

no one reads my blog and its only you who does!!

and that lil things make me to love you!!

and there's no other girl i like(except some of)!! :D

and the truth is that i can tell only that I LOVE YOU!

.................

2010-09-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

its night and i have bottle of drink and i have a great reason to drink because my girl broke me up!

now i am gonna watch movie and enjoy with the drink!!

AND DAMN I CANT CRY!!!

its sunday-funday-jatin's b'day and missing day!

2010-09-19T09:58:00.001-07:00

uhh today was a good one! as i know every birth day of my friends remains special!! we enjoy lot every birthday!1

today is 3 friends bday jatin,pathik,gaurav!!

jatin is one of good friend pathik is my class mate and gaurav is common friend i just know him by incedent!

today i woke up at 11.30! and i just use to be on fb and all!
at noon sank called me and told we gonna buy a cake for jatin(we do for every friend and thn we celebrate)!

soo however we arranged money(as everytiime my mom was my bank :D)!we buy black forest everytime and thn we bought one and went to jatins place and all celebration went on!

yea and we smoked today at jatins room as usual! (idc because it was celebration and i was sad also)!

however it turned my mood on and we went to mac'd as always we use to celebrate and thn fun and fun after passsing good time and watching and making joke on girls.. we went to eat pan!after tht (jatin bought another cigarate and... :D)

we used to sit outside in the parking and just chit chat was goin on!

but by that everybody started giving advice to me that i should be happy whatever my papa gives me and all i tried to explain that i do and i do it when limit runs ou but they didnt let me...:P however i should try from now on to make my self satisfy and m much serious about myself now!

soo everything went so... when we are chating of here there just pathik came with his friend circle and he offered us to join to eat pan! but we told him its okay he forced and onn! he came with group of girls also! and meghna was also there she's(was actually) friend of mine.. we're class mates till 10th but how come we started talking with eachother from colege!

we dont talk now(i dont) because she show me attitude 2-3 times she smiled and waved but i didnt replied :D (dont think i did bad but i also have attitude :P)!

yea after that at home dishang came he miiss placed my pendrive some where and just he offered me his but i told its okay! why should i take his when he just lost by incedent! :P

and just we chatd for sometime!

after he went i chated with candy! andd she is much obssesive withh that dhara!!
how to explain her tht i love her andd all!(damn she made me sad 2 days)! andddd i just knew somehow that dhara gotta bf! :P that was a shock but who cares hehe i also have a gf :D!!

after tht candy went off suddenly and i wanna kick her ass for 3 times now!! :P

i am gonna study now because there's test of dld in college everybody told they aren't gonna attend but i dont trust anyone now!

soo everybody rejoice the time! and sayonara! :)

dhara day!!

2010-09-17T05:54:00.000-07:00

humm i am back from college now reporting 6.25 pm!

huh now i am tiered!

everyday seems same but there's special things happenes which makes life special!

hoowever today morning was at sanks home! i was at night hold we wrote the silly asignment till too late sank gived up when i competed mine!! :P

however late night work didnt worked we had to listen slangs :P

today morning we were late and nishil was gonna take time!(he comes early at mandvi when theres nothing special thing but he always comes late when theres some good reason to go early) :P

we met my college freind and he told us to give ride to college however me and sank went with him(nishil cried a lot because of this hehe)because we left him!!

well at college sank decided to bunk first lab but i attended! and i was in benifit because we both didnt wrote journal and that was the reason to bunk!

well i attended and checked my last practicals also though i got c grades for this however atleast i got checked!

during practical i used to pass comments and i noticed girls were geting crazy with this wooo!! and many got me in em eyes!

after that recess and fun! and dbms lab and i got one more thing from lab and helped kichit to get a RAM :D

well our dld teacher is so mean she thinks we are studying in school damn i hate her maybe i represented her befor sometime in blog! but shes uhh damn irritating to all!

actually we bunked her last lecture yesterday and she got engry and BE sir went to fight with her on that (he thinks we bunk his lectures because dld teacher gives too much load)however theress tooo many load! :(

and on and on she told whole class to write a apologizin application and submit to her!! some of signed in letter but we(my friend circle) didnt :D

in last two lectures it was math!

and mam is bit....:P she let us do what we want while she teaching and we do masti hehe

today we had much fun!!
we made fake applications and passed it to sign every students and we used to write fake funny names hehe! however dhara got that application she turned back(we are last benchers ) and gave me a smile (because she know who is that can do this)welll... todayyy damn in first lec. (we are not in same group for practical :(...) my eyes waited for her! damn and when i watched her after lab whoa! she was looking :X :X :X :X

howcome crush is increasing :D

whole the day even in dbms lab (she used to sit far away from me)! though i hehe i was standing up everytime for no reasons and i watch her than sit back! :D

she also she was roaming here there in lab to have a look of me(maybe)!

well also in maths period i felt that she was turning back everytime and (actually she was talking with one of her friend...he is idiot mofo bc mc yuck)!and though i felt she was wanted to have look of me! :D

whole the time i was watching her like a dog!

after college there was ganpati visarjan in college and there was a DJ yeay and me sank nishil and rajan haha danced though we were four only others were unknown students! it was fun when we were returning for some vehicle to put us on !! i watched dhara in van! and woow i kept staring her!1

i dont know why i keep thinking of her when i gota girl! :( i see candy in dhara! :)

btw today is the visarjan of junigadhi ganpati! and its famous for the fighting and all races between hindu and muslims!! when we were coming back (raj droped us to main road in his van)! and then we found a riksha for home! they asked for double money then usual beacause road were blocked because visarjan!!

that riksha droped me and sank at the superrr :P area everywhere was muslims and it was horrible though there weree toooooooooooooo many police(my city is famous for races between hindu and muslimsfights and all)!

when we just came on main roadd junigadhi ganpati came over there wooo soo many public was there many were dancing and many were just walking with!!

it was a nice experiance i used to dance in this dj last time!! :D

well now its eve and bunked class becuase i wanna apologize to my girl :)

now m waiting for her and enjoying with tea (my dadi is backkk woooo and misty also came with her mom :D)!!!

hey and i got holiday till tuesday(minivacation) woooo and m gonna enjoy a lot!!!

so everybody just enjoy!!

ganpati bappa moriya! pudchya varsi luv kari aa! :)

its 16 today!

2010-09-16T09:15:00.000-07:00

reporting on 16/9 at night 9.50

humm today was quite good till night!!

i woke up at 9.30 exact time whn i leave for college and we all friends me sank and nishil meet at mandvi at 9.45!!

but today i just kept my alarm ringing for 2 hours!!(i seted it for 7)!!

and i cant explain how fast i ws been ready! :P

it was a good experiance ready in 15 minute(i brushed teeth!,took bath,prepared clothes,wear em,used to set hairs,and shoes)

however it was .......

after that in dld lab teacher screwed us up! because file wasnt complete and we didnt even knew anything! and special thing is sank and nishil not talking with each other! :P

they messed on something in class when i didnt went to college!!

thats kiddish things and nishil realized how bad it feels when someone tease you out of limit!

he gota new name "baa" hah!

:P

andd everybody almost stoped teasing me!

well today it was a dbms lab and we stole smthing frm it! and dhara aah atleast she noticed me today(i was staring her like a dog) idk wat happened but she looks same as candy to me!

in lab i acted brilliantly performed practical super fast however there was minor errors! and sudeenly lights went off (duhh)!

after this we gota leave and attended one lecture! b.e hah that sir suck! not today because he make us free in few minutes whoaa!

after that we all boys made a huge group and used to set out of class because there was some free time and we all teasd all the girls and others one by one! that was fun! :P;

after that i came at home!! (oh damn i forget to explain auto riksha!hah that driver was playing songs soooo louudly!! oooh no! though me and nishil enjoyed it wery well)

humm and after that class and all!

special thing which made my heart sad is!!

well i wanna talk about love now!

its the horrible thing same as beer! you know its gonna hurt you though you like it!

it feels sooo badd when you have right of somethings and you cant get em! directly i just demand something from candy and wth she........

whatever shed dont care about this!

now m stuned and hurting deep in heart!

well i have to goto sank's house on night hold because we have to finish our files and show it tomorow!

too many work load and i have to complete it with sad mood!

btw thanx for reading my blog and geting bored(but i sure you also gonna feel same one day and it gonna hurt)!

goodnight everybody (have to spent much time with files :P :( )

damn bad day!!

2010-09-13T03:06:00.000-07:00

ooh no!! today was the bad day!! idk it was as commnon but! :P

morning was alright!!

i just became ready fast because i was been late!after goin to college i just kept staring at "dhara"(i dont wanna describe her)!!

hah and she today i felt she dont even feel present of me!! (the first one)

after that all of my friends started teasing you(thats common) we tease a person one by one!! thats part of fun ! but everybody was been mean to me!
i just been silent!!

and after that damn maths faculty arrived again they made fun of me!!

and also in recess!!
and when i went to class some of class mates were playing antakshari (the game in which everybody sings songs by after words)!!! and dhara also!!

wtf idk wat was wrong!!

today was sad because i didnt enjoyed as usual!! however theres no same day!!

even i wanna rejoice my sad mood!!

talking with my girl now lemme see wat happenes now after 4PM!!

today!

2010-09-11T10:46:00.000-07:00

humm today was actually i cant judge how today was!!

i kept missing my baby whole the day!!

and morning was so late i thought i may go to watch movie but there was no money papa refused to give pocket money also!!! oh damn!!

soo i just been ready and i started struggeling with my books!! i read some basic things of dld!! suddenly dishang came woow saviour!!

and we went to buy his new micro phone! and hah after that i chilled! i called bhavesh(one of my best friends)and he gota exam i called him after long time tohugh my purpose was to ask him to come with me to watch movie but damn his exam!!

after that sank came and we went to bank again early morning and again!! it was closed!! hehe!

humm after that it was chilling day me and my jiju(cousin sis's husb) he is comp engg actually! and we tried to install bros new comp and however it was taking longg and we failed for many times however something crashed in os :P

well i learnt many things today in computer and after that we tried to fix our router but again he also failed!!

at night my old tution teacher came named dushyant sir woow he is so nice i remember i am bit good in english because of this person he is my idol!! :X... my parents and he talked for long time he drunk tea and eat laddo(yeay mom made this because today was gaesh chaturthi) and we chilled after that i am back in my room atlast i shifted my self again wooooooo!!1

now m just goin in room and i ll chill with movie!! :D

papa cant restrict me now!! \m/

okay bye everyyone have a great time!! cya!

10/9/2010

2010-09-10T10:11:00.000-07:00

today was holiday of idd!! however i wake up late and all was different today!!

i used to study at morning i read only one page :D watever it was fun!!

thn me and sank went to bank and after it we chilled at my home because sank told he is goin to watch movie with friends(us) he lied because he wanted some money to pay someone!!

i tried to go and watch movie but no one wanted !!

damn

after tht i helped darshan bro to get his new pc!1 and yeay! now he got new!

tomorow is ganesh sthapna and everybody gonna get ganpati in home!!

woow it ll be fun!!

today b4 sm gtime i just practiced lot of guitar and i learnt happy birth day! :D yeay!!!!

now jigar bro is at home and watching tv(t20 match)!!! its boring maybe i am goin to watch a movie on laptop!!

have a niceday everybody!

8/9/10

2010-09-08T13:34:00.000-07:00

hey to all!!

hope everybody is geting fine and enjoying much!! here today(actually yesterday)was nice one morning woo i woke up for myself(papa didnt draged me from bed)...

and just normal things but an accident happened in morning !!
while waiting for nishil at mandvi bus stop to leave for college there some electric blast happened!! whoaa it was so huge one and everybody frightened however sank was with me and he was also a bit afraid(akib also)...but i just kept watching to it and even my mind was working superbly.. sank told me to get out of the bus stop however i used mind and we didnt get out(else the ele wire will be directly effect on us) :P

after that again we were late in first lecture attendence were not been filled! sad!! even we are suffering from less attendence! i was on he first bench today and i seriously attended the lecture! :D

after that everything was soo common just the that girl didnt ccame! :P i dont know she didnt attended the freshers party also! :( maybe shes ill!

umm idk what now! just everything normal candy went to dormm and we talked for about half n hour she was looking cute :X and yeay i made tea for myself today!!wooo!

after that class and we(me and sank) went to met his old school friend today! hes a nice person!

well we chated for long and again i missed the time i commited to candy :D sorry babe!

umm now m at sanks house!! i am night hold because we got assignment to complete and we have to submit it tomorow in practical lab however mine is finished and sank is writing i helped him in drawing itss soo soo sooooo boring damn!!

now m goin to complete my half movie!! drunken monkeys! :D soo bbye to all!have a damn good day!!(enjoy as much as you can)

if you didnt noticed the date it was

8/9/10

i noticed on the morning in lecture 8/9/10 at 11am and 12 second! :D

oh damn saturday!!

2010-09-04T01:29:00.000-07:00

ohh no!! today i gota leave from college and i planned superb day! and noo

darshan bro he ruined it!

i wake up late because i chated long till early morning with candy!!woow great time!

today darshan bro told me he wanna buy some net connection and i told i ll help him he just made me to be ready soo fast!! and i missed todo excercise again!!

and after we went first to get connection he keep asking for help even i knew all thing about it!! huh after this when they asked for the zerox bro told we will submit form later!! damn

after this we went for his work! :P he wasted time there!! i knew here that his business is geting much dull!! uh sad!

he is sooo so soo geek!! damn idk why! but he is!!

he rides the vehicle on speed of 20-25km/hr damnnn!! :(( i cant imagine my face when he was riding sooo sooo sooo............ :P

after messing in the office he kept walking in one to other office!! oh no!

after this we went to get connection again and we messed there again!!

after this he told we goin to market oohh noooooooooooooooo!!!

we went to market(indian market) i went after long time over there!
it was soo umm weired place though i watched many vegetables and fruits i dont even know all the names! :P...

hum after this we came at home andd hahh!! i felt wat awesome feeling!!

well now mom and deepanshi watchin serials :P.....its boring muchh!

what a day! outside its gonna rain soon! and i am goin to play cs now!! bbye everybody rejoice the day! :)

crazy day

2010-09-03T12:29:00.000-07:00

wooooow today was crazy!!!

yeayy i enjoy day today was the best time to recover myself!!

i wake up chated bit with my gal and yeaaa college!! haaahhh

in college it was a b.e lab and we me and sank went without completing our file!! :D

many other boys were same!

well b.e sir(his super odd even his name is odd jasvindar huhhhhh i get know that he didnt get admission in ME damn shit if he got it than atleast our life may been saved for 6 months not he is doing balatkar with com 5th div students haah he cant even speak hindi well ahh i remember his that pronountiation "enrollment numbar" ROFL)

he made us to sign an application from our principal and we were watching each others face after coming out from lab we went to toilet and we used some time to get fresh washed face and after that we discussed about what to do now against principal office!!

after dicussion we decided to go and talk and to please sir and make him realize that we are sorry!!

when we went to him again we called hum out(because we didnt wanted to loose our superb personality between all boys and girls because we went to beg from him :D)

as excepted he started blaming us and than he watched our attendence mine and sank's was same (6 out of 22) hehe and other were okay and there were sagar also(bit healthy boy he is having super attitude and bit young angry amn easily get angry) well after long chat we pleased sir but sank aah he missed one place (when sir asked that does your parents knows about your bunks!?? sank aahh he told yes and i told no!! uhh sir went mad again he told sank that i ll allow whose parents doesnt know about bunks and sank have to go and get princi's sign! :P) huh how i handeled that thing after that sir get frank to use he asked if we tell what we do after buning lectures he will let us enter in! :P haha i expained him 4 in library 4 in canteen and 4 at home!! haha he didnt belived though i was right he thought we went to watch movie with gf's :P

well however atlast i won!! woooooow!!!!

i stared at dhara for half and hour shes the new girl in class and wooo i m geting intrest in her!!how ****** ****** ************* she is :X though she use to tie her hairs in indian way and use sticky hair oil also!! :P :p ;P :D

but i know i love a girl already!

after that two lectures we went to canteen in recess time and sank bought parothas her mom made!! it was nice and for the first time we drunk canteen tea!! :P it was!!

i miss dadi!

well after that dfs lab wooo i stared at dhara much!! woow! :X :D :)

and i just touched my mem's back badly uh damn that was accidentlly happened she shouted heey!! but i didnt had idea! well she forgive me but no one knows that thing except my group :D

after that two hours of lab it was extra lecture of dld haahh!! everybody planed mass bunk but we friends haha we decided to attend because the whores didnt helped when we planned mass bunk and yeayyyy

our attendence in class made all the studnets in!! yeaaa we rock!! :D

and i stared dhara again

today i just got great great greatest chance to go and talk with her but uhh damn sad i didnt went all my friends forced much but mine ass was been blasted!! :( i ll coplete this task in freshers party and yea i forgot to tell i got pass of freshers party at monday!! its gonna fun!!

and now before a hour ago i went with dishang it was janmashtmi today and we went to watch the celebrations :P and after that dishang and me went to his class and we glued m seal on the lock!! whoa!! beacause they were tourturing the all students much

now dishang will enjoy holliday tomorow!! :D

and candy will not like to hear this but i smoked today!!

woooww two black! i liked that at first while we were goin to seal the lock!

after completing it i bought another one and we somoke at great place in ground woooo!!!

that day was superb now! i am chating with candy and its great time here!! bbye buddies ll share all things tomorow now!

01.9.10

2010-09-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

hey its starting of the month today was a bit handy i attended all the lectures today!! some was fun!

and yea my dfs sir woww he is so good re!! he understand us and he ll adjust about our attendence!! yeay!! idk about others :P

well today was normal fun in college and after college i went to class in auto bcz sank was with akib and after completing class (wooo bhoomi i lost intrest frm her) :P
haha and we shared a film(u knw which one) in class from a unnows person :D i asked because akib wanted to watch it and we all watched it during class(and yea bhoomi was siting in front of us)

after class well we all ( me,sank,nishil,rajan,kinchit,akib) went to party outside!

woow and we spent greaat time today everybody shared secrets and talked about our dreams whoa it was amazing!!

i got some secrets our

kinchits gf name is margie parekh not mansi decosta! :P
sank did pee on his papa's office in sleep (he thought it was bathroom)
nishil dont really watch dreams
akib kissed his gf
everybody of us are virgin! :D
rajan watches dreams about miley cyrus! uhhh

and many things it was joyfull time!

and tomorow is janmastmi (indian festival birthday of lord krishna) and i gota holiday in college deepanshii brought some ornaments for tomorow! i have to do pooja and tomorow is cards night woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

tomorow we all friends gonna enjoy time again in mac'd!

it'll be great time i hope so!

here nw i am enjoying wearing my new boxer! much confortable because dadi is upto vasad!

okay so i gotta go! bye to all enjoy the time :)

doom's day!!

2010-08-31T11:33:00.000-07:00

today was the worst day (another) in month i went to college and every teachers make me to stand up because i was having low attendence so sad!

yea in dld lecture sank and nishil were been saved but not in dfs sir caught em! and yea everything seems solved now (:D) not exactly but they told if i dont get enough attendence i ll not able to face internals and they will call my parents! uhh no!1

today that new girl wooow i stared at her whole the day (i think shes out wid someone else) who cares still i gota chance! :D

well we just stood with 2cm distance between us!! wooo she was messing with sir and i kept looking at her! :D

my two of mam were watching me and they kept smiling(i dnt care b*****)

well thus whole tha day and yea i attended a dld test woooo full of cheating!1 though i wrote some from mine side too!! but it ws joyfull! one hour time pass! hehe

and my right is full red because i didnt slept much yesterday!! sad so now m goin to watch a movie!! so you keep enjoying the time!!

bbye!

28.8.10

2010-08-28T10:55:00.001-07:00

hey there!

today was a bit silly!!

at morning as i woke up just i turned yahoo on and destinee was on!!

woow she teased me a lot today i bunked today for her even it was mass bunk in college!
well that girl uhh in joke it turned in a valuable relationship!! however today i got call of nishil that he is ill!! i thought must be something normal!

after one hour i got his bro's call that he is addmitted and me and sank went suddenly to the hospital(findin the hospital was bit irritating) well though it was normal today nishil looked like a stick!! :P

at the noon we spread that nishil is in coma just for fun :D and calls uhh wooo :P and it was enjoying thing!!

bunked class hehe

i went to bring my spekers back with nauman they replaced it with someone else speakers :P cheaters huh!!!

today our cm in city because election is near and he came to intro us something like new walking pool uhh! damn!

i never explained nauman he is cool guy and he is much helpfull!! however good friend of mine i gifted him a deo which i liked so muchh!! well because he keep helping me :) thanx bro (hehe he doesnt read my blog)

and tried to fix my router that one also doesnt worked (f***) well i ll try with it tomorow again! and the special thing of today is i fought with papa

me and deepanshi was teasing mom and she just shouted twise(yea it was just for fun) and papa huh he was angry much(maybe tensions and even india was loosing) he started shouting to mom :P i lost control and he also and on and on and on!!!!

and woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow i cried today!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

not because he hited me but because he just hurted my loving mom and dadi somewhere!! :P (i didnt cried like gay just some tears fell down) and really i kicked my papa! because touching my dadi(she was in defense of me hehe)!

and after all me and papa just compromised like good mens! :D and i wonder i completed my assignment today!

about today i think it was mix expression.....umm i missed candy today!

as i think i should try to keep my emotions in control!!! (who wants it took sooo long to turn em on)

well now m goin to plat cs! and after mafia wars(installed mafia wars tool bar :D )

soo now bbye have a wonderfull teasing boyfriend (destinee) day!

26.8.10

2010-08-26T10:23:00.000-07:00

hellow!

my today morning was bit okay i woke up and went to college talked sometime with my gal :D from mob obviously and it was boring in college bunked first 2 lectures and finished our lunch box aah and we practiced for football :D..

after that it was test of DFS i attended this and wrote nicelly with doin cheating wisely hehe...

after that we came back to home and GTPL tech. repaired yeayy!!! :D

eve in class and after that at jatins room trying after hukka!! uhhh it sucks now! :P

after that my two silly friends came(yea nishant and archit) and they just played with my mind uhhh stf em!! yuck!

now chating with candy huh we both seeking topic to chat lol! now today i sure i will watch sixth sense i m missing this movie from many time!!(yea because i do chating now at time of watching movie!)

now m leaving and goin to watch movie
:)

have a nice day whoever reading my blogs!!

25.8.10

2010-08-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

25/8/10

today was a okay um good at morning i bunked college and went to watch movie (lafangey parinde) and it was okay bit!!

and the noon was special w bought new hooka! and haha nobody knew how to use actually we just only knew how to enjoy with it but we didnt have any idea how to fix it and all!! well plan flopped we tried almost many idiotic things for this like we used plastic instead a foil... ew used to burn coals with petrol :D haha and at last we mixed the flavour with coal :P

jatin keep offering me for the same thing!! uuh how to hold myself now however i do :D

um at evening it was surprise celebration of my dadi's b'day wow she was soo hapy with this!!everybody just enjoyed and i did all work uhh i was soo tiered and we me nishil sank jatin and vraj woo haha we danced alone on music... it was fun!!

at night i was for special chat :X umm maybe she thinks i need a real girl (WTF that is she is also real)...and hah that things makes me... um i dont knw what feeling it was but it was sad! huh and umm idk if she wanna break up or what well i am happy with her and either i dont want that here some girl play with heart and i kick her ass!! :P

everyday i keep planing to watch movies and i cant because of that girl!!
everyday when i close my eyes a face comes against myself because of that gir!!
when i go and think to smoke i cant even touch it because of that girl!!
when i see the clouds i see her smiling face in it tht silly thing happened because of that girl!!
when i watch someone making romance i dream my self with that girl!
i dream her instead sleeping in boring lecture and thts also because that girl!!
how to tell now whom i love more than myself my world IT'S YOU GIRL...!!

sorry for late posting! last day of mumbai

2010-08-26T10:20:00.000-07:00

hey there..
today morning was in mumbai i woke up late and had to go to the uncles place suddenly!!and hada luch over there and i watched my no 2's marriage album! it was okay and a bit boring also after that we went to masi's house and her house is awesome marvelous fantabulos!! i loved the way she furnished it! wow! there yarvi tied me rakhi the day before rakhi! umm and i gifted her 501/- :)

and evening was the shopping time (yeay!!) and i as everytime used all of money after it!(papa was worried too much) specially i shopped lots of deos and 1 spray (you may know i am mad about this :X ) and some t-shirts and all... :P

after that it was time to go foi's place and i chilled with my cousins hiral(the wedding girl) and teju d and bhavik also! papa and others drunk much because it was last day!!uhh!

and now i am in train on the top birth (i like to be on top )and here on the beside one i read name of girl and now i am waiting for her to hop on the train!! :D

i didnt talked with my girl today because she dont have enough time for me! :( (nobody haves time but we have to manage it(as me)) huh!

today i missed that girl (maybe i mentioned her yesterday)

and now nishil called me he was worried about i bought something or not (arey he gotta right re best friend (maybe)hehe) and i lied :P he gonna kick ma ass if i dont buy something... however i bought costly shorts for both sank and nishil!

well overall day was preety good and i can rate it 7 out of 10!

i'll update more things about my further journey :D i sure it gonnaa take curves! :D

(sorry for late update i posted this blog from mobile but failed :P docomo!! uhh!! )

NEW UPDATE MORNING 7.00 am!

haah docomo sucks! :P i am at home now typing the same thing on laptop even my GTPL net not working :P
yesterday night in train was good because i was waiting for the girl on beside birth haaah and a girl oh shit damn no yuck owkk damnnnnn muff came over there :(( and my face uhh i cant even cry f*** suddenly i pulled my blanket and just closed my eyes and the morning was ahed!! haah!! damn now i gotta go have to brush and my dadi :X made tea for me woww!!!

i love her for this!!!

good bye enjoy the time...

Engagement day

2010-08-22T12:28:00.000-07:00

In mumbai it was engagement day of sis and it was awesome so so so so romantic(there were few girls ;-( ) but however everything was awesome...the music was making atmosphere more amazing and everybody was also enjoying totally i enjoyed the day.. Today i felt that my girl dont have time for me (is that because i dont pay much attention ? I'm boring ? Else because of long distance relationship) well however she thinks i go out with girls now how to tell that she's only the one whose hand i would like to hold...how to tell how much i love her.....many times i think why god made love without making love meter :-P uh it's really complicated now i went to roam mumbai with my cousin and it was shocking wow nice going ...impressive we played poker lots of time today and i kept wining thanx to my gal muah my lucky charm... At 12 f nite i went to have ice cream with newly engaged couple and cousin bro bhavik,deepanshi to some natural ice cream well bro told it was best icecream shop of mumbai well i noticed and that incident haha she waved and i was mad (yea re she was hot no she was bomb ) i was eating icecream at the time and i was just about to fall down and my bro turned my head after and shit f*** her bf was also waving :(( however my girl is more good then her...we came back by 4 ride on two wheels that's weirde and i cant explain that... Now i planned to take some drink for my friends though it's tough enough to hide from parents it may abusing well let see what happenes... Now i'm goin to bed papa and foi chating and tata goodbye nite

Ride of train

2010-08-20T18:00:00.001-07:00

Now i'm in mumbai standing in front of a tea stole the place makes me to shout yuck oh damn i hate the smell of the city...oh and damn what girls there were on baroda's railway station it was uh awesome... And with my cousin and the kids i had fun over there... Last night i was in train and my good luck there were 4 girls and 2 were awesome as i say.... Hah my bad luck i was with family however i have a girl(but where's problem in flirting :-D)the streets are wet because of rain (i had tea and it doesnt satisfied me i love you dadi) uh i wake up till late and that girls also winked to me haha and candy i was afraid so i had a nap :-D now i reached at uncles house and relaxing...after finishing household things we will go to ma foi's house and there will be fun...

birthday morning!

2010-08-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

hah i just commited myself to wake up early on my birthday!! but at night hold at sank's place we finished all at 3.30 at slept at about 4am!! that plan is flopped now!

everyone keep asking for party but i dont have enough money! hehe

just we planed to bunk college and goto play pool on ma b'day :) we gonna enjoy!!

i missed to meet mom and papa on my birthday my badluck!! :(

well however i talked to mom as i woke up!! and she's great i got some money from her hehe

so i can enjoy my day!!

2010-08-17T10:51:00.000-07:00

today it was a nice day bunked college!!! and chated with candy in morning !!

after that we went out for some works like sank gota work with bank! and i had to bring my speakers back!! intex service center sucks!!

still i cant fix my router! and they told to call me on some no and they will guide me!!

haah they gonna guide me!???

:P

however i am gonna try that

now i'm at sank's house on night hold actually me and nishil came to write some assignments but now we chilling nishil playin games and me here blogging!!! hehe

its my birthday after 37 minutes and hope it will gonna memoriable!!

i am goin to turn in 18 soon :) enjoy!!

PRANAV MISTRY superb invention!

2010-08-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

15-almost 16 aug

2010-08-15T11:40:00.000-07:00

today was preety nice i wwoke up late and went to sanks home to edit some videos talked with my girl! and bunked class! before class i get knew tht today is class!! :P

well at evening we were together!! all!!

i readed some sex education today!!

and talked somethin same with candy!

and yea today!! shree ram won indian idol 5!

now tomorow i gota exam and i didnt even opened the book :D now i am gonna read something tomorow! book is muchhhhhhhhhhh thick!! uh!!

well goodnight to all have a grreat time!

15 august

2010-08-15T00:34:00.000-07:00

its 15 august today and its our independence day!

i planed to wake up early and it failed i woke at 11.30 :P i missed the pared! though i listened to our P.M..

now i am watching a programe 'aazadi live' and i seen many of idiots dont even know what is our national enthem!!

hah i wanna put em all in wall of shame!!

if you dont even know what is our national enthem you need to sucide in your bathroom!

idiots uhh!!

and now i am editing some videos to put on you tube

hope you will like it!!

:)

TATA BBYE DASVIDANIYA CYA SHABBAKHER TAKE CARE!!

andd JAI HIND!

14.8.10

2010-08-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

had a but good time today maybe i am recovering my self now!!

i applied for rechecking my exam papers though it was unexpected!

sometimes i cant judge howmuch i love to my girl maybe more than god do to us!

tomorow is 15th august and i am gonna wake up early and watch india's pared!!

THOGUHT OF THE DAY: if everything goes bad dont think too much about it!!(go and masterbate lol jk) just close your eyes ang slang all the things hurting you! atleast you will get power to live somemore!

12.0.10

2010-08-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

today is the worst day of the month!!!

the bad moments i faced are!!

in morning i messed with papa
i woke up late missed college
papa forget giving me fees
electricity cut
bad mood
went for hair cut worth spending whole money
it went bad
result declared i failed
in class everyone teased me badly
and at cming back we were goin to clinic
petrol finished
and now m goin to write the assignment whole night
worth my sleep

4-7-10

2010-07-04T10:21:00.000-07:00

its the time i just watched movies whole the day and i dont even remember how many movies i watched its great m thinking to make linst of movies i have seen....

i told candy about her behavior and she abused....shes geting rude to me but....

well whole the day i was on internet chating wid frnds movies whole d day and all i just rocked at night jigar's car was having some accident so as he called me and sank went for help..

god damn i cant stop thinking why god game me life that gonna end someday... i cant bear that and it make me scream everynight but however i feel my self better thinking by my family friends sweetlilfe haha and in nishil's lenguage INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS(candy).. hehe life goees on and i thank god that i am still alive he must be a purpose for me...

idea of making a website is gonna take at tuesday... i hope we get some great name...

trip to swapnasrushti water park

2010-06-25T10:37:00.000-07:00

haaah and exam is over now we are just enjoying

before exam we made a plan to goto swap.. waterpark but everyone refused after exam..
plan was almost flop but we just puted it on.

we were onn night hold at sanklap's home at 5am we woke up and just been ready..

and d fun begain though we didnt sured that we had enough money to pay but without carring of it we just started enjoying

first we got over there in mini amarnath ahaha and we just roamed there and at last we gone in....

and haha riniging bell in the caveee (can u imagine how it seems) yea we just rang bell(the bell puted in temple for arti) and we snped many pics after tht we did masti(however ur badluck i cant explain this).... we watched 3d movie...

andd in waterparkkk aaaaaahhh watt the funnn we hadddd... first in big ride we named it tirangaaa and after that tunnels(capsure rid) from 2nd floorr anddd the majastyy which we used to ride on about 50 timess pendulan ride(v shaped ride)........

we were mad in that heaven city after that missisipyy haha we had much fun over there everyone get sniches than in wavepool after that in manyyy rideess i cant explain everthing u should be thereee watt fun wee had no one can explain ittt...

in short I HAD AN WONDERFUL DAY OVER THERE BECAUSE I WAS WITH MY FRIEND WHO DIDNT CANCELLED PLAN BECAUSE I WANTED TO GO OVER THERE.......

it's about this week

2010-06-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

it was bit boring study is just getting coveer my mind.

last wed i get know that there's seminar of diamond diplomat MR GULSHANN GULATI and special guest were one and only EMBESSADER of ebiz community MR MANJUL ARRORA and other diamond diplomat MR RAGHU TEKRIWAL and it was rockking i was there with one guest and alone no one from my teat though seminar motivated me a lot... however it was a bit inspiring also.

sandip ji is goin good. i know everyone were expacting something magic from me but i they should know that i am not a magician.but i also know i can make a sparking magic.however sunny ji(my downline no 6) is doin job and that thing is like shame for me.he just sent me a message he sends motivating and friendship mesages but dont work. i know my down is fallen akshar ji also fallen out.

everything bad happning is because of me.however i will not repeat that again ever.

i am planing to buy new body deo.

and yeaa exam is on mindd study sucks every morning i think to do study whole the day and it ends after just 10 min.i cant concentrate much...

and next 10 days i am just pausing my physical activities for my business i am after study...

I WILL DO IT!!!!!

18/5/2010

2010-05-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

oooh cute baby of darshan bhai "anvi" is at home now... she's cute and lovelyy beutiful.

she keep crying everytime she eats and sleeps.and enjoy new life for sometime in a day.her eyees keep seaking peoples.she stares at fan.she likes talking everytime.

wooooooooooooow

i'm uncle noww.

haha

see she's cute..

17/5/2010

2010-05-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

oooh god it was terrifieng day for me.it was my vyva and submission for electrical engg and i didnt completed my journal.my 2 sir's told me like black words between whole the class.however it wass insultig anyways.he told about my parents that the boy is here and parents are in delhi(they are for trip i missed it because submissions)and he dare to tell me what u did in life...like slap on my face i meanted to tell him everything but i been cool.i told him give me anything as a challenge i ll prove myself he told complete 5 chapters of course in one week.he'll take my tesst and i accepted however....

now preparing for tesst and i fixed i will make a big college after about 5 years and there will be a helping prof. of ele. will be mitesh sir and dhaval sir.i am not joking it's true.
i will give same sallery to him as i will give to my security guards.

not the ego but it's just a commitment.

and yea my friend nishant will be also teacher of it in civil department.he laughs at me too much when i do my work.after some time i will laugh on him and he will work for me..

mind it's not ego it's commitment....

thank you godd. let me proove my self.

25-4

2010-04-25T04:37:00.000-07:00

Oh my god it was the day when i was just about to commit a sucide actually one of my warrior akshar ji gave invitation to one of the guest and other love line gave invitation to his brother so the problem occured and for that i doubted on my upline rahul sir he just spoke some words that pinched my heart and my mind was blowing like a bomb.just however i maintained it like anything and today there was mine 5 guest while the report gas given of 11 guests.tomorow is my exam and rahul sir told me to take followup of all...and huh guests are not picking up the calls.now again i cant think what to do now.i'm now unanswerable.....god help me

My milestone

2010-04-06T23:20:00.000-07:00

Yea here i write the thing happened in my life everything what happened and every thing from which i suffered and all the things and facts.

18/8/1992 was the day when i born.it was the time when my parents and family was happy out of limit because at that time when a boy been born in family i was the future of our family.everybody was much happy with me but who knows what gonna happen with them and me...
After my born my mom used to live in od(it's a name of a city).i'm not very familiar with it.but i just know my mom used to live there about a year after one year of my born they used to live with my grandmother(mother of my mom.let me tell something about her she's nice lady we lost my grandfather before my born.but she's much practical lady my mom and she upgraded their self and my grandma is the one whom i love most.)
in there dharmaj i still remember the house was much big.it was like a horror house for me it was always covered with darkness.though i had most fun over there.at night i was using to play video games with my grandpa(my mother's uncle whom i used to tell grandpa).we were watching horror serials named aahat till late night with my mama's(mama :brother of my mom)

STORY OF VASAD

after some years in dharmaj my mom placed to vasad that's the place which was heaven for me.the place where i grow up most.the place where i had most fun of my life.the place where i had seen the best moments of my life.that the place where i lived my best moments of my life between 6 to 13 years though i didnt lived here whole time i actually used to live hear partially.

HISTORY OF BARODA

my mom planned to let me grow in baroda that's the place where my whole family was living and baroda was the growing city at that time.so my mom planed to put me with my grandmother(mother me my papa) she was very strict lady with her there was my uncle,aunty,son of them,grandfather our house of baroda was much old.it was in very bad condition even we cant stand no second floor.like it was in very bad condition.i have very bad experiance with that house.it was like jail for me.i didnt ever felt good moments within this house.but though i had bit good time.with that house i have some nice memory with this.from first standard to 6th grade i was in the school of baroda named lal bahadur shastri school.that school was full of masti fun but i was still a normal person.i was like very rude boy. I was not scoring in study even i was not good at sports and all...
In that time i was just been lonely but i had a friend named nainesh. We were very good friend.i enjoyed too too too much with each others.i remember we were used to make hold into a water bottle and we were spraying it no others we were also fighting as well.my mom was using to give me some rupees i was using it to chill with my friends.
Thus we were enjoying much but god didnt meant to watch me happy.

HISTORY OF AMBE VIDHYALAYA

That was the time which i still didnt ever enjoyed again in my life...
That was the golden time of my life.in that time my father changed my school it was an day time school.that was because my father was working too far from us he was pursuing as hotel manager in five star hotel.and my mom was teacher she was living in vasad and i'm in baroda with my grandmother.in that time my father started making of new house in baroda after constructing that papa resigned the job.and we all started living with each other me and my family started living happily in ambe school i started upgrading my self.it was much fast i was getting bright i started scoring in studies though i was weak in maths but i toped in other subjects.and also my mind was developing practically also in this school i got many good friends named rupen,kapil,nikul and all we were just enjoying our time like anything but again god played game with me...

HEART OF MY CHILDHOOD

that's the heart of my life the unlimited fun from where i had.in that time it was like i was about 9 years old and there was my friends somehow i made them my friends they were living bit far from my house it didnt ever affected on our friendship...

2 march

2010-04-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

I was been for a play yesterday it was about some motivation. Actually my bro came to me and offer me to go out with him tonight i first thought to refuse but when i knew that the play is some motivational one. I planned to go with him.in the town hall it was very much nice hall i think it must have capacity of 700 to 1000 peoples a dream took place in my mind. I just commited that once a hall will be full from my ebiz associates and there will be great announcement will be made. The announcer will be much happy to welcome me on stage he will madely with great pleasure with much of guts and with great passion he will invite me hundreadr of eyes will be waiting for me the press persons will be motivate. Peoples will be eager to see me.everybody will make lots of mogad of happiness with great great thunder applaus and standing aviation.every body will dance on my entry with lots of cheering each and every person will be like mad for me first 5 minutes will be taken only to calm the public down they will apprisiate with me. Then my first words will be "ha mene dekha tha ek sapna ha mene socha tha ek mukam ha mene feel kiya tha ke ek din ha ek din maa kasam ek din me ye hall bharuga mere ebiz associates se i had a vision i tried mene socha tha aur dekh lo stage pe ake think how i'm feeling kisi ne kaha tha sapne mat dekho sapne kabhi pure nai hote but mene dekha aj ap dekhlo how to describe yar i dont have words.cant you feel my words.i was sitting in at last of the seat during a play i was so motivated i commited to the hall that once i will full it with my ebiz associates and yes i proved it damn think how i'm feeling yar how to describe that and a thing i want to tell you thank u to being with me i love you every one," I'm thinking i will prove it i will make every type of efforts to prove that true i will full the hall yar damn i will prove....
And the play was about like a charming girl she looses her hands in an accident her dream was to be an c.a and to perform live in i huge concert but after losting hands she feel that she will not let her dreams make true but how ever she reads a sentense nothing is impossible and she get inspired and than she starts working with her legs she starts writing with her legs she starts doing everything from her legs. And then she gets a good support of a person he loves her but because of having bad experiance in love she refuses him everytime but boy was bit funky he keep trying and helping her. At last she passes the exam with first class and also performs in concert and she makes her dreams true.
The thing i knew from this drama is even a handicap girl can do it yar i'm normal so why can't i do it. I was at limit of the motivation. Now i really prove it yar thoug i failed many times
hausla he buland to manzill ko paa le ge hum.
Thank you god

16 march 11.30

2010-03-16T11:19:00.001-07:00

Its too hard to become first. I know i'm working hard one of my upline dont have doubt on me but in one of my upline already lost faith from me.today i tried but i didnt got worked. Yeah i was been .... But i made a commitment to my self that i will talk to 2 of my uplines after proving my self. Yes i commited that i will achiver of one cycle before 22. I will be silver on 19 may its birthday of my guru rahul sir. Yes i made commitment to him that i will be a silver leader on 19 th and he commited to me that i will be gold diplomate on the end of 2011. I loved that very much but i know i have to work too hard for it. Yes sir i'm ready for it sir i can give my head in your hand just on your one order.
Sir i will win. I will prove my self. I will prove that i am the only one on one is better than me. Only i am the king. Its the time of do or die. I will do i will win.
Just taking off to fly i will win.
Tomorow i'm gonna work so hard 7 to 11 i will work that's minimum time for me.i will prove that i'm winner....

Going for meeting

2010-02-18T06:20:00.000-08:00

Its 8pm and i have to go to give a meeting i know i will rock.i will be succeed and i am gonna win.

18-2-2010

2010-02-18T05:38:00.001-08:00

Back from event. Had great fun there engineering event was wonderful just it was fantastic. I lost in cs and mw but i finished computer code creaking almost but i lost in final. It was a festival for engineers robotics,aeronotics,robot fight, lan gaming,fun games it was simply fantastic festival. I liked it very much and treasure hunt was also there.i had great fun there.

16-2-2010 morning 8.45

2010-02-15T19:25:00.001-08:00

See its another morning. I woke up and just now waiting to go for bath tomorow was not so good but maybe today is beautiful. I am watching persons that are running for money in so early morning their life were same before 10 years same as today. Wat ever mild light of sun says are coming in front to me. It touches and says go dude you are the winner.....who ever i am but i am not a looser i will try again and will wait for result......

14-2-10

2010-02-14T00:51:00.000-08:00

Dad wrote a sucide note ha ha and damn im having force to work hard bc m working but it is not my fault that m not getting result. Wat ever yes i m workin hard hard hard and so hard. Ha ha they thinks i am an rocket that will not ever fly. I need to prove my self. Btw happy valantine day

ganpati !!

2009-08-22T23:54:00.000-07:00

here it comes the festival of joy the festival of fantasy and the festival specially we celebrate for god ganpati(its a name of indian god ) here i have some photos of it ! i will upload more next sunday!

thats our ganpati!

my trip (plgrimge)

2009-08-17T03:07:00.000-07:00

somnath the place where lord chandra(moon) made the shivling!

again same didnt get more because they didnt allowed the camera in!

other place a swaminarayana mandir!

stairs!

aaah somnath's sea!

i dont remember what the place is that!

somnath again

lord ganpati! the statue found in the farm (farmer got some dream about it ) with gold

the river where the god comes.....(some time i dont know when)

the history of lord krishna

it was 15th aug yeay \:D/

toys demo in swaminarayna mandir !

bhalka tirth where lord krishna died!

nice place isnt it?

the scenerio !

boats in the .............

lol thats the vehicle used in saurashtra

again!

at last somnath mahadev again theres the shivling and the temple is made from gold from inner side !

janmashtmi

2009-08-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

just enjoyed janmashtmi we played cards and just had simply fun and i did pooja of the lord krishna and it was great fun at 12:00 when i did the aarti ! now i have some photo to share here comment on it !

college

2009-08-13T23:18:00.000-07:00

started college it is nice

about ipl 2009

2009-05-14T23:30:00.000-07:00

who will win ipl2009 do u also think dc. yes i think so but dd also have chance for its on no 1 and mi cant say anything about it but knight riders :P how can you dare to watch their match no one plays good no score no good bowling well but its ok i like their dress and song korbo lorbo.but now m cheering for dare devils here i have rankings of iplt20 season 2 its more than game

	MP	W	L	RR	Points
Delhi Daredevils	10	8	2	+0.36	16
Chennai Super Kings	10	6	3	+1.22	13
Hyderabad Deccan Chargers	11	6	5	+0.29	12
Mumbai Indians	11	5	5	+0.54	11
Rajasthan Royals	11	5	5	-0.37	11
Bangalore Royal Challengers	11	5	6	-0.36	10
Kings XI Punjab	11	5	6	-0.56	10
Kolkata Knight Riders	11	1	9	-1.04	3

wats da date

2009-04-05T07:39:00.000-07:00

yeah exams over not exactly but i can now go to watch movies and i can also go for shoping wid my friends and all can do all the things i missed during study watever its goin k wid nish and just its a good time for all

AR REHMAN

2009-02-22T23:14:00.001-08:00

A.R. Rahman, or Allah Rakha Rahman was actually born A.S. Dileep Kumar to a musically gifted Tamil family in Madras (Chennai) on January 6th 1967. While his father, K.A. Sekhar, was a composer and conductor in Malayalam movies, a young Rahman would often travel along side his father and attend the many studio sessions required of a composer. Interestingly, during one of those visits, musical director Sudarshanam Master observed 4 year old Rahman playing a tune on the harmonium. Even when the Master covered the harmonium keys with a cloth, Rahman played the tune again as if the keys were still uncovered. Impressed by what he was witnessing, Sudarshanam Master recommended for 4 year old Rahman to undergo studies as a musician, and soon after a young Dileep was receiving lessons from Dhanraj Master.

Although his young life was filled with promise and joy, much of that was cut short at the age of 9, at the time when Rahman's father died from a mysterious illness. Forced to support his three sisters and mother, he and his family first rented out all of his father's musicial equipment but when that was not enough, Rahman went further by the age of 11 by joining Illaiyaraja's troupe as a keyboard player.

At this point in time, and seeing the potential in her only son, Rahman's mother Kareema Begum encouraged her son to pursue music fulltime, and because of this, his education naturally suffered. Skipping school became a common occurance for Rahman, so much so that it forced the young musician to drop out of the prestigious Padma Seshadri Bai Bhavan to the Madras Christian College, to finally dropping out of school all together by the 11th grade. While out of school, Rahman stayed busy with his music endevours by accompanying Zakir Hussein and Kunakuddi Vaidyanathan on world tours, as well as playing on orchestras commanded by such individuals as M.S. Vishwanathan and Ramesh Naidu.

For the next 8-9 years of his life, Rahman would work with different composers and musical directors, and while each experience led to Rahman's understanding of musical compositions, Rahman had always felt that in order to make the greatest music, composers were probably under the influence of some drug or alcohol. Illaiyaraja changed his perceptions on those stereotypes: "Until then I thought you had to drink or take dope to be a good artist. But Illaiyaraja was making such beautiful music and leading a pure life. I was under the impression that if its music, whoever it is, they must have some bad habit. He [Illaiyaraja] proved that he could make music without any bad habits."

In 1988, tragedy struck Rahman's family again as one of his sisters became seriously ill, hovering close to death. After all medications and prayer services were deemed un-helpful, the family asked for the help of Pir Qadri, a religious muslim whom the family had sought at the time of Rahman's father's death. Through Qadri's prayers and blessings, Rahman's sister made an unbelievable full recovery, an experience which convinced Rahman and the entire family of the powers of Allah, and as a result, the entire family converted to Islam. No longer did he present himself as A.S. Dileep Kumar, but now went by the name of Allah Rakha Rahman, or A.R. Rahman: "As Dileep I had an inferiority complex. As A.R. Rahman I feel like I have been born again."

Through all of these experiences, A.R. Rahman built his musical expertise and understanding, as well as a fond understanding of life and religion. Although his early catelogue of works is impressive, it was not until 1991 that his musical genius was discovered. In 1991, Tamil move director Mani Ratnam took a chance on the young Rahman, who at that time was best known for a composition he had produced for a Leo Coffee commercial. After inviting Rahman to a studio session, it only took one listen to a Rahman track to convince Mani Ratman that A.R. Rahman was his man. After signing Rahman to produce the score for the film "Roja," the song "Tamizha Tamizha" became an instant Tamil hit in India, and launched the then 25 year old into stardom.

Of course A.R. Rahman had much more in-store for the world to witness when in 1998, Mani Ratnam employed Rahman again to compose the score for his first Hindi film "Dil Se." Although the film flopped and was unsuccessful in India, the title track "Dil Se," sung by Rahman himself, as well as his production for the hit "Chaiyya Chaiyya" was enough to bring movie-goers to the theaters. It only takes one listen to these two tracks to understand why A.R. Rahman is widely considered as one of the best musical composers to ever come out of India.

Of course, an entire book can be written on A.R. Rahman, however getting a small glimpse into the life of a legend is a humbling experience. Not only has A.R. Rahman received numerous awards and accolades, but his 2002 Broadway debut "Bombay Dreams" received a generous welcome as well. Throughout all of his accomplishments, A.R Rahman has completely transcended all cultural boundaries by his musical productions, compositions, and vocal performances, and never ceases to amaze the musical industry.

A.R. Rahman is currently on a US Tour entitled "The 3rd Dimension," which features Rahman, Sukhwinder Singh, Chitra, Hariharan, Sadhana Sargam, Sivamani, Blaaze, and others.

and here oscar comes

2009-02-22T23:07:00.001-08:00

hey friends its 23/2 the date of oscar oh k then i hope you know the result than lets take look of

21/2/09

2009-02-21T21:48:00.000-08:00

today i got my test result i got 92 i think its achived gretly and i cried gor like one hour caz of no reason like silly but :P made changed my blogger templat and now i am trying to upgread my wap.

13/02/2009

2009-02-12T07:02:00.000-08:00

today i am trying to built my own site i will inform when i complete it !

09/02/09

2009-02-08T23:18:00.000-08:00

to day just i was going somewhere through ma bicycle on road one man was on scooter suddenly he stoped his scooter caz he got a phone call so i got thrust and i cant break my speed so it been little i think so little excident so just i was normal so caz feeling thrust man told me somethin like gali(bad word) so i ignored(as usual) but second time he told me bad word on ma mother so i got engry and told him it was his fault and he dont have to stop hisscooter there and caz it u got dump but he didnt listned ma any and caz of call he was just tellin bad words and etc etc so u told him also one bad word same he told so he got engried and told me he ll hit me so i replied i will not see the seen means i ll also hit u so he felt shy and after some time he relized that it was his fault but cause of phone he didnt exept his fault and a driver of auto told me to go away or he will hit me (i got high temp when auto driver sawed his gayness and also caz he didnt told something with ma side ) so just man was on phone and i also had a claas so i got out from there but that kinds of lit been every where in baaroda|(my city) so just i thought in my spare time to do something on that but what can i do also i have to study and i dont have time this days caz of my exam but i am plaaning to make a gang of youngsters and get all out dis peoples who get just like that in short i want to let them see what they did and not to do same thing in future in doubl short i want to repair and get our THINGS (SABHYATA) and(SANSKARS) back in indian people in run of RS they foget all of things which our people made wid great plesure and i think got have to rebirth to solve this all things