this days

i know i am not gonna publish this post but still i keep writing because i like it...

well yesterday was great i woke up at sanks home after that i watched my phone wallpaper.. huh what a feeling that was...

and when i looked around sank was out somewhere.her mom told he is out for driving.. and after that i walked out for home... we decided to bunk college yesterday so i had nothing to do so i kept coughing..

i dont remember what i did actually but i just kept playing game and nothing else i tried to study for sometime i failed..
well that digital logics are fun i think..

intresting subjects though i failed in 5.and at noon i just kept doing same nishil called me to check i didnt sucided or what becuse they know whats in mind..
however he went to meet his gf even she have exam.. thats great and he called me because to make plan to go somewhere outside and have fun.
we decided to go out at noon at 2 and i was ready to pay for sanks petrol.but wtf we just ate vadapau and then after decided togo out for roaming we almost roam whole city.

but these days each and everything remind me candy i just keep trying to move her out of my mind but god dont let me..

each little thing remind me of her.. like if some couple is holding hands duh that kills me like anything..

uhh.. after that we just went to just chill and drink cold drink whatever intense was to just pass good time.we talked of here there and after that justt we put off the gym class and just at home with that f feelings and coughing sneezing..

i came back and i bought 3 flip flops this is because i dont know i wanna gift one to papa.. and yea i have gifted papa a super costly shirt from money which i was saving for taiwan however i dont care with it now..

and papa he was happy like never before.i like that..


at night i called sank and invited to smoke just at time that irritating boy sumit came and he was just sticked to me he came for movie and software he is irritating sticky idiot person...me ans sank was bored much still he was not moving at last he did.. uh thank god..

and then we went upstairs and started smoking we are usual not with this.. we smoke then it take us to the untoxic state and we just keep talking about anything..

however some plans some sadness and love and feeling chat goes on.. that remains for about minimum half hour... yesterday i took all the smoke inside and i was just same as drunk out of the mind.. just a great feeling like flying... that was great..

when i came back in good state i knew i kept kissing the wallpaper of candy and just keep talking about her... (she is still holding the place of wallpaper of my phone)

however that was just great feeling for sometime..

night was at sanks home he bring me because he need a laptop to talk with his mexican girl friend everynight however.

she didnt came last night sank kept waiting and we watched movie atlast...

when i woke up sank was out for driving and i moved to home... i prepared myself for college and sank texted me that he is goin to college with nishil on his motor bike..

i hate this unity breaking thing.. :(

at college it was sports day and football match i was late in dld lab i wonder that idiot teached permitted me to enter even i was late...(after i know the college was having sportsday and they didnt had rights to take lectures today)...

i felt a bit intressting practicals in lab (i kept missing candy).... whatever i have finished joining one circuit..that was the first successful thing ever..

after that some sir came and told not to take any lectures just send all students to the ground... i was shocked when i heard sigma football team was in final... we decided to watch the match and have fun.. me and rajan went to pay fees for this exam everybody moved out of college for home that was idiotic we were searching em everywhere in college.. and as we lost in final i moved out of the college because rajan told he will come after submitting the journal today was last day and submissions are goin on.. i cantdecided what to do.. duh that is much boring..

whatever i came home and just slept sumits call woke me up he told he is downstairs and uhh he came for that job work which i told him.. i didnt had that at right so i told him for tomorow..

at evening candy texted me with containing only "why?"

i didnt knew what to do talk with her or not well we did talked she asked if i dont want to talk to her... i just wanted that but i told thats okay with her...

whenever i talk with her now it hurts like i am dieing that unbearable pain.. duh
:(((((((

now i am in room electtricity is lost and i am writing blog with sweating...
mom is holding place at vasad with papa painting work of home goin on...


i was been to hosital today because i was sick much and after test doctor told me i am alright to me..

i know what that f alright means.. maybe i have got h1n1 or that bone in mind wanna move out... i dont have any idea if i am dieing...

whatever i decided i will do smoke at night in my room without caring for anyone.. thats only the thing makes me feel good..

goodbye..

i am not publishing that blog i am just saving as draft because i dont want candy read that even i deleted my fb account she asked me about this today...

i just dont want to talk with her because i cant bear the pain when she talks and i get know she dont loved me (how can she stop loving me... i meant how can anybody can stop loving anyone.."?)

i just uhh even i am hiding from her at yahoo... invisiblity... i just spy on her by watching her FB page and updates.. she is geting habbited not to talk with me... she will be used to it.. however i just wanted to keep telling that i love her so much...

and i just miss her cant forget with time.. duh

goodnight..